CLARECHEW(:

2010-02-14T00:32:00.000+08:00

brand new;

14th feb today, marks chinese new year and also valentines day.
but how come, i dont feel anything at all?

it's really a year of major change for me i guess.
it's time to get into a new environment soon,
new school, new team (?) (*i don't want though), new life.
but sometimes, i wish that everything will be like the past, the good old days.

i dont't know what else to continue,
just hope that all will be fine this year.
i believe what yours will eventually be yours,
and god planned the life ahead.

till then.

2009-12-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

in moments like this;

Touch Rugby Training and Bonding camp 09/10 is finally over!
I'm glad the girls enjoyed the short , tiring, sweaty and rainy camp.
the smiles on all your faces at the end of it told us that all the hard work was worthwhile. (:

i thank my camp committee so much, without all these girls and their wonderful ideas, everything won't be able to happen.
I'm glad that up till this point, i've still got these few year3s with me.
It's been a long walk since we're year1,
from strangers to acquaintance, and to friends,
till the bond that we share now.
i'm greatful i met all of them, and stayed in touchrug.

to my year3s,
it's our last season soon,
let's play our hearts out, give it a last shot,
and wish for the best out of it.
(hearts)

Christmas is just 2 days away,
and New year is just a week.
i hope, pray and wish that the coming year,
will be a smooth one.
i don't need wonderful surprises,
i don't need rollarcoaster year,
i just want it to be peaceful.

god bless.

2009-11-14T14:23:00.001+08:00

Racing with time;

The hectic week is finally over.
Submission, Trainings, 2.4km, Sports day - CLEARED.

Angels all did great at Sports day(:

This is probably one of the event that i wouldn't forget about SP.

Anyway, MST soon.
I can't believe i need to mug AGAIN.
But after which it's Training cum Bonding camp and Christmas.
I am excited about it,
and i hope, the next year will be a good year.

I'm trying to walk out of my sorrows.
I believe, time will slowly wash it all away.
and soon, i can tell Alvina Goh(i miss her!) our favourite quote.

Dilemma.

2009-11-02T19:26:00.003+08:00

pure & simple.

life's getting back on track the way i want it to be.
i'm happy with what i've got now,
and i dare not ask for more.

Last semester in poly already.
i know i'd miss school once i grad.
the very nice people i've met,
and the tears, laughters and gossips we've shared together.
so i promised myself, i'll make this last sem good one,
and leave SP with no regrets. (:

FYP is not-so-fun.
that's the worst thing ever in school now.
i hope it'll be over and done with.

just a random update here.
i will update more in future!

bye for now!

2009-08-01T22:09:00.001+08:00

finally, a breakkkkkk;

have been busy with Touch ever since after MST,
POL-ITE trainings, POL-ITE trainings, regular trainings on Tuesdays and Thursday,
games, games and more games,
painful knee to horrible knee now.
finally, a short time to give school work some time and myself too.

POL-ITE was a rollercoaster ride for my emotions.
lost and not driven,
to the desire to win.
i'm glad how the team grew,
and became bonded as one.
no matter what happens, we will tell each other 'heads up',
and i know we'll continue to do so!

Youth in Touch today was tiring, sunny and warm.
i'm burnt, very very burnt.
i'm still brooding over my personal mistake (i know the girls know it's the phantom).
shame on myself being a captain and calling.
i realise when i know i am tired,
when my mouth works faster than my body and hands.
reprimanded myself, and i promise i will learn from it.
no more such stupid mistakes.

but we still won Angels.
i thought it was the best farewell gift for Brenda!

now main worry, submission on Wednesday and i am still at zero.
time to buck up!
but i need some sleeeeeeep!

anw, driving test on Wednesday,
give me all the luck you have people!

till then.

2009-06-23T00:14:00.001+08:00

short-lived, like a bubble;

Officially 19! :D
one of the trainings was sweet. The girls bought a cake for the June babies!

Brenda, Val, Diann, Joan and i!

Picture perfect!

i love how bonded the Touch girls are now. Please study hard for those who've got tests, and work hard on your projects for the rest!
By the time we're back on the field training, it's time to show what we've got and play our very best.

Birthday was spend with the Clique at Botanic Gardens!
the place was lovely, almost perfect for pictures!
Frisbee, Soccer, Vintage Radio, Chats, Egg Mayo, 4 cartons of drinks, Nuggets, Uno, Laughter and the sun.
All that we could have asked for!

the People!

the lovely girls!

It wasn't a blast, but i was one full of warmth.

Alright. time to hit the bed soon! STUDY HARD FOR THE LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAYS! i dread saying that!
bye!

2009-06-12T22:18:00.001+08:00

in the midst of;

no need for any fights,
no need for tears,
no need for pretence,
no need for clinging,
what yours will eventually be yours,
and what's not,
just say too bad YO!

learning to take things easily,
cause i know,
trying too hard doesn't make things any better,
it only makes you feel stupid, useless and a dumbo YO YO YO!

but wells,
praying for the better!

regrets?
i don't have that in my dictionary now.

bye all!

2009-06-10T12:54:00.001+08:00

gutsy speechmaking;

holidays have been alright so far.
nothing much to elaborate,
if only everyday i'll feel like this.

sometimes, you may have lost something without knowing it.
sometimes, perhaps people just do not think enough before every single actions they make.
sometimes, we're just egoistic and refuses to reveal our true self.
sometimes, too many sometimes,
but one thing i know,
i control my life,
and not my life control me.
i don't believe in fate,
but i do believe in karma.

it's been a complicating week,
complicating week of mixed feeling.
at certain point, i feel as if i'm the happiest girl on the planet.
but wells, i also feel the other way round, the worst feeling ever.
maybe i shouldn't think so much and take a step at a time,
but when you found out something,
humans can't pretend nothing happen, or at least i can't.

enough of grumbles.
i will smile and pass everyday.
or at least, i am satisfy in the situation i am in now.

bye all.

2009-05-31T21:30:00.000+08:00

the journey is far, but i know it'd all come to an end one day.

BD Presentation, CF project submission and farewell are all over.
The previous week was a so busy and hectic one. It's been a week since i had a proper long sleep to pamper myself.
i need one badly,
and i guess life's on the right track now.

i love every single one of them. Angels, always a family.

and i just realised,
it's already June!
time is flying.
i am one quarter done with my poly year 3.
omgggggggg

I am done, goodbye.

2009-04-29T21:19:00.001+08:00

it's time to take a breather, but time seems to be running out;

Attachment have finally ended!
hear my joy and laughter.
i was giggling like crazy at the end of Friday last week, heh heh.

back to school,
everything on the right track,
school, tutorials and lectures, training,
i promise to attend all of them as much as i can.
just that there's more things to be busy about.
Trainings, CCA drive, farewell, upcoming competitions,
omg, too many to handle, too little time!

i love classmates.
they're the ones who motivate me to class.
and i like the bond that we share now,
simple, yet happy.

alright! Happy may ahead everyone.

2009-04-13T21:34:00.003+08:00

who are true friends who will remember you no matter what, and who are just friends who tends to forget you when you try to make them feel treasured and loved? i really need an answer. close friends? i wonder who i have.

are friends like changing season, and you're just a part of the 4.

i am really disappointed in some. sigh.

anw last 2 weeks of attachment for me. hope it'll be over soon!

2009-03-29T14:04:00.000+08:00

where'd you go;

itp is halfway done.
one more month to go!
i've been seeing Kailin and Su almost everyday!
they're now the people that motivates me to work.

missed Sports Club FOC this year cause it's really tiring to go down after itp.
plus i have got trainings every tues and thurs to attend,
too much to handle during this period.

money money money,
faster come to me,
although itp pay is only pathetic,
but i need it to go buy my things!
yesssss,
i am looking forward to tues!

Games Tour was good.
all we did was eat, sleep, shop, have fun.
shopped like mad and that is why i need money now!

Although i dont go to SPSSC often now,
but there are still friends that are close to the heart,
and friends that i would wna treasure.
Alvina, Sherilyn, Alyssa, Maureen, Leon, Leonard, Fariz, Glenn, Weiyee, Haowei, Steven, Nic Khoo etc, and even the graduated like Kuang and ShingChoon.
they are the ones who taught me in some ways, and helped me in another.
thank you people!

i foresee my last year in poly to be school, touch, classmates and projects.
but wells,
i am looking forward to school NOW cause i hate work.

bye all.

2009-03-07T21:26:00.001+08:00

break; all that i need.

omg, i didn't know attachment can be sooooo tiring, cause in my mind, i only earn 3dollars an hour.
plus office wear everyday,
late being a very big issue.
but thank god my supervisors are niceeeeee so far! :D

been working, training, home, sleep,
that's like an every week routine.
nothing special. sighhhh
i have no life!

Dinner with some Sports Club peeps last Sunday before some went overseas for OITP!
takecareeeee all of you!

Beach Touch last Sunday.
made me look like a lobster.
it was fun, an experience!

Last Tuesday was the Jazreel the dear auntie's birthday!
she hit the big 2 already.
omg, in a year's time, it'll be mine!
and i'm already Year3 soon!!
but anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAZ! ((:

The Year2s with her! (where's Sya and Ayu!)

clare is eggcited for hk trip in 4 days time cause it means i can have a little getaway from work,
I CAN SHOP PLAY AND SLACK!
i'm so excited that i just bugged Sherilyn and ask her what clothes is she bringing!
okay silly.

anw i have an ulcer which really hurts.
i just googled 'treating mouth ulcers' and loads of remedies appear!
but all need LEAVES.
god, where do i find those leaves!

okay, i'm feeling sleepy again,
ALL THE TIME!
driving again tmr, HEEEEE,
byebyeeeee.

2009-02-11T23:45:00.003+08:00

i feel like giving up;

seriously,
i really think i hate my course.
all the economics, Finances, memorising work are omg.
modules like Understanding Cross Cultural Diversity, business law, Customer Relations etc made things even worse by testing out memory skills.
the best person who can memorise and vomit all out during the test will the the one who scores.
i don't understand what such modules are trying to get out of us.

deep in thoughts today.
sometimes, i wonder if i'm a really good friend.
a friend that when someone has problems,
they'll turn to me.
if perhaps i showed a little bit more concern,
she would not have left school,
i would not have drifted from some friends,
and the list goes on and on.

but i understand,
everyone move on,
leaving some things behind.
as long as they left their happy footsteps in my life,
i should be contented right?

i don't know.
sometimes, somethings,
are just so contradicting.

anyway, attachment placement is out.
i'm going Prudential Assurance with Suzanna and Kailin.
count myself lucky to have companions!

Games tour and Junior Tournament clashes.
i dont want to miss both,
but sometimes,
like in life,
we can't get the best of both!

ahh goodbye everyone!
study hard and work hard after!

perhaps i'm just grumpy today.

2009-02-07T14:32:00.000+08:00

struggling to get out;

school ended.
which means exams are really coming.
time to start studying.
but i have been procrastinating.
sighhhhhh.

ITP placement not out yet.
imagine they can't find a company for us,
which means NO ATTACHMENT?
i wish okay.

caught Benjamin Button with Reeve yesterday.
we thought that it was a great flim.
although everything happens slowlyyyyyy.
but it was nice!

now it's UCCD, TA, BLAW, FF, FMKT.
then after,
i'm gonna start my driving practicals!
then Surf and Sweat on 1st March,
and ITP on 2 March.

i shan't think too much and try to study hard.
byebyeeeeeee.

2009-01-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

colours in life;

omg, 2009 is already going into it's second month.
which means,
chinese new year is over,
exams are officially coming.

schedules are out.
having paper on 17th, 19th, 23rd and 25th.
then after it's break for others but attachment for some of us!
omg omg omg.

Chinese new year has been pretty okay.
not much visiting done,
but still a happy long awaited break!

caught Inkheart and The Wedding Game during the past few days.
The Wedding Game is a big NO NO to watch!
i want to watch 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons'.
it's releasing this Tuesday,
anyone anyone? (:

Thursday was Seoul Garden with Reeve.
although he had a cough but we still had it cause i wanted to!
hahahaha sorrrrrrrrry!
but it was nice leh,
at least for me.
i don't know about him cause he's PICKY!

yesterday was a mini gathering at Alvina's place.
no pictures cause mostly was taken using Alvina's camera and she takes a thousand years to upload!
hahahaha.

now, i can't wait to know which company i'm sent to for attachment.
i hope it won't be too bad,
or please give me higher allowances!

ooh yar,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANA ADAM AND MR JAMIEEEEEEEE!
byebye!

2009-01-18T22:47:00.002+08:00

dreams held high;

ZOMG. it's already the third week of January 2009 and i still seem to be stuck somewhere behind time.
School's been really killing the past week.
projects projects and never ending projects.
TA test on tues,
FF submission on friday,
GEMS presentation on next wed after cny,
and UCCD presentation was over and done with on this friday.

omg omg omg. tell me exams are not comingggggg.
i'm not prepared.
someone please ask me to study!
i need better GPA. anyhow, i can't wait for cny.
so i can take a 2 days break from school and projects.
short but wells,
better than nothing!

i'd say my chinese new year shopping is almost done! GRINS! :D
after attempts to many many places.
Monday was Bugis,
Tues was Town,
Wed was Vivo,
Sat was Marina and Suntec.
ahh no more money! BROKE.
all the money daddy gave me FLEWWWWWWW.

he was nice on Saturday. ((:
vroom.

i wna go chinatown!
yay yay yay!

byebye!
time for yoghurt. (:

2009-01-11T13:38:00.000+08:00

in between two worlds;

IVP ended with a beautiful note(at least for me),
everyone played hard,
gave out all during this season.
ANGELS ARE INDEED THE PRIDE.
we fought hard alongside with one another,
with a common goal in our minds.
although we're not champions,
but at least we knew we gave it all and have no regrets.
and thanks all those who helped to wash the jerseys! :D

yesterday was town with Szy, Yici, Mary, Amanda, Beep and Jaz.

few of us went starbucks before the others came.

went around for clothes and tattoo designs.
i want clothes,
while Yici and Szy want to get tattoo.

the 3 of us who sat down and slacked while Szy chooses her design.

look how excited Szy is!
she booked another slot to get it done.
but pleaseeeee reconsider cause it's irreversible!

anyway, joke of the day!
amanda had Salonpas on her chests,
which could be seen as she was wearing white.
UNGLAMMMMM,
but dont worry Amanda,
it wasn't a tumour!

alright,
i think i need to start doing my projects,
do my tutorials and attending classes.

i'm looking forward to cny,
although it's ony 2 days break from sch.
but when cny is over,
comes the nightmare exams, then ITP.
omg.

okay byebye for now,
i need to go hang clothes.

2009-01-07T22:18:00.000+08:00

believing the miracles do happen;

okay SP is in the semi-finals for IVP this year.
somehow somewhat, SIM's game was forfeited.
i know everyone must be bitching about us,
home ground, bad refs, etc,
but we really tried very hard,
and fought till the very last whistle.
WE DESERVE IT,
no matter what others say!

anyhow,
i'm kinda drained from touch everyday for almost a week.
it's nothing but school, IVP, home.
ohmygoddddd.

but it's just the last leap,
we've all came so far!
i should not be selfish,
i will work hard and contribute to the team as much as possible!

(this sounds like a self motivation post but i can't be bothered.)

GO ANGELS!
play like we did today,
the 'never give up' mentality.
we're going up,
mental's up,
play's up,
talk's up,
and no matter what the result might be,
we're still the best!

2009-01-04T13:58:00.002+08:00

I AM THRILLED.

SP VS TP
4-1

WE WON.

maybe if other schools see this at every of our blog and angel's blog, (
provided they have stalker like we do[nana]),
hahahah,
but please let us be proud for once.
fruit of our hard work!

Angels finally did it.
this will be the biggest gift to all of us.

:D

2009-01-02T23:09:00.001+08:00

CLARE WILL NOT BE BEATEN BY TODAY'S GAME,
I DON'T CARE WHAT OTHERS THINK OR SAY,
AS LONG AS I DID MY BEST, PLAY ALONG WITH MY TEAMMATES,
IT'S ENOUGH.

i dont need comments that wont help.

sometimes i wish you were a lil more sensitive.

2009-01-01T13:14:00.000+08:00

glittery;

last day of 2008 was a day that i'll never forget,
cause i got my tooth extracted!
it's not wisdom tooth people, it's just my molar tooth!
and it hurts like crazyyyyyy!
everyone said it's not gonna hurt,
but in the end,
AHHHHHH.

i think it was hilarious.
cause it was the first time i screamed so loudly at a dental clinic.
4 person including the dentist are attending to me when i get a little pathetic tooth out.
and i cried like a baby.

the pain subsided,
finally,
after i got my tooth out.
but now,
it began to hurt a little again.
painkillers are my best friends for these few days.

IVP is tomorrow.
OMG.
i hope my wound wont bleed when i play.
or the dentist said i should stop immediately.
I WANT TO PLAY.

alright,
countdown at zy's place after i took my dinner at home.
they were barbequeing and eating steamboat but i can't eat cause i can't chew!
sucks.

i foresee myself getting thinner,
EEEEKS.

enjoy 2009 everyone!
it'll be a better year ahead! :D

2008-12-27T23:20:00.001+08:00

this christmas;

Christmas was a peaceful and lovely one with Joan, Alvina and Sherilyn!
Dinner at Seoul Garden with Alvina and Joan before Sherilyn came over to meet us.
food was a lot, ate like a carnivore and full like a pig!

hahahahaha.

camwhore after.

dxo for drinks.

26th was barbeque with the Angels.
i didn't do any barbequeing at all cause the juniors was so sweet!
they did all the jobs for us! HAHA
but i didn't eat a lot too!

the year2s and 3s.

Jazreel my Mortal! i hope you like the small gift!

Yici my angel! i loveeee her! and thanks for the gift! :D

Angels. :D

Yici, Joan and Nana came over to my house to sleepover after.
Yici drove! hahahaha.
you're driving's alright! dont worry.
but she was cursing so much on the road!

we chatted till we fall asleep!
they were all sleeping so soundly but my stupid toothache hurts so much that i couldn't sleep at all.
woke up super early for friendly at NUS this morning. sighhhh.
life revolves too much around touch these days!
but ivp's coming!
NO CHOICEEEEE.

2008-12-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

melodies on white keys;

sometimes i wish i was a kid,
as carefree as they are.
but sometimes i wish i was a grown up,
so i can do whatever i want without any restrictions.

sometimes i was a had loads of boyfriends,
so that i can have them to accompany me one by one.
but sometimes i hope i'm single,
so i can do anything without any worries.

sometimes i wish i was a clubber,
so i can have fun all night long and forget all the troubles.
but sometimes i hope i was a geek,
so i only need to study and nothing else.

sometimes i wish i was in heaven,
cause it's so peaceful and nice up there.
but sometimes i want to be in hell,
so that i can haunt people i hate every lunar 7th month.

sometimes i wish i was a superstar,
so i don't have extra time to think of anything else.
but sometimes i hope i was an ordinary man,
so i can enjoy the nature of life.

sometimes i wish i was a hunter,
so i can treat every one i hate like a boar and shoot them to death.
but sometimes i wish i was an angel,
so i can forget all hatred.

sometimes...
never ending wishes.

holiday has been fine.
intercons is fine,
training is tiring,
ftt was good,
threading was painful,
but life was sucky.

bye.

2008-12-14T21:27:00.003+08:00

sweet and low;

one week of holiday's over. and i think i didn't do anything much.
thanks to stupid flu and fever which comes and goes, annoying.

town with these 3 on last friday.
christmas decorations are everywhere,
but i'm not feeling it as much YET.
i love christmas,
love is all around,
and PRESENTSSSSS! :D

met up with classmates before Su goes back to indo for her holidays.
steamboat buffet.
filling, fattening, man tou (thumbs up), ate horrifying a lot.

intercons captain's ball on Friday.
played with my leaking nose.
being forced to the doctor after.
thanks to Reeve Seah.
or prolly i'll still be like a sick cat at home now!

went to cousin's new house today.
okay nothing much,
wanted to get new shoes but i can't find a pair that i liked.
damnnnnn.

i've already missed one week of training.
now i can't wait to go back to the field,
see nana's new hair, see joan's face with her fringe cut! :D
i've been missing out A LOT.
sighhhh.
bye all.

2008-12-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

so many in one;

SC marathon finally over. it was tiring, fulfilling, full of blisters, loads of water station, sweat, knee pain and everything. but i'm glad i finished the half marathon. salute to all who finished the full cause i swear it's SUPER tiring for them. i almost died.
thanks boyf for being there throughout everything. though you were lazy too. (:

MST over,
holidays now.
short term break.
shall have sufficient rest,
plus meet up with those who i haven seen in ages.

i foresee training after training this holiday.

now, i just want me leg and back aches to recover!
sighhhhh :(

2008-11-26T21:14:00.000+08:00

when autumn falls;

week has been pretty much fine. major projects are all done and handed. last week of torture to go for the term and we'll get a short Christmas break! i know everyone can't wait, including me.

Business Development registration day tomorrow. hope everything goes well and they won't split us up and just give us another retail option person to form the group, prayingggggg. training tomorrow. felt fat after skipping Tuesday's.

MMSP last friday was okay. the event was DRAGGY, as usual. Alvina did great! (:

MMSP with the lovelies.

Mr SP and sports club girls(:

Sherlim love(:

Amron and Joan. Joannnnn, you look tall huh, cough!

i hope MST will go fine and i won't screwed anything up again.

3 to do things on my list.
1. Study for MST
2. Gems report
3. Expo IT fair (i wna buy a digi cam)

2008-11-16T15:38:00.000+08:00

bliss; something i wish for life

i foresee the coming week to be hectic, full of problems, drama and tiring!
MA presentation is up on tuesday.
i have one and a half more days to complete the powerpoint/html.

but the problem now is,
i dont know what to include,
no guidelines,
not sure whether to do in html or powerpoint.
this is nonsense.
i wna help but i dont know how much i can do.
UCCD and FMKT submission on friday too!

i wish this week will fly past quickly.
and now i want Tuesday 5pm to come,
cause it means presentation is O V E R.

enough of school work.

yesterday was good cause went to catch Madagascar with Boyf.

although the ticket cost me $10!
i thought it was okay.
funny, worth watching, lightens the heart! :D

wednesday was a memorable day!
M1 and Sports day!
rushed down to sch in between M1 carnival for relay.
and the trip wasn't a wasted one.
free jersey, PLUS first for both events.
i love the girls! (Jaz, Joan & Nana)
we make a greattttt team! :D
it was pouring so M1 was postponed.
ahh i dread M1.
forever wasting time and nonsensical.

bye all! (:

2008-11-11T23:22:00.001+08:00

life; a game full of thrills.

hectic week.
Project submissions soon, M1, Sports day.
o h m y g o d !
someone please save me,
esp Ma project.
i'm LOST!
i think my groupmates hate me but i'm really trying my best to help and learn at the same time.
sighhhhh.

ooh.
something damn pissing happen today.
i swear Singapore is filled with uncivilized pigs, those aunties who think that they're very 'big' just because they're AUNTIES! WTF.

i was boarding the bus and a auntie just shoved me aside and boarded first.
the bus wasn't packed at all and CONFIRM she can get a seat.
can't she just wait first!?

i really hate those aunties who thinks that they have rights over everything just because they're older.
plus this stupid pig isn't old at all.
prolly like 50years old?
show us teens some human rights too.

not just because you're auntie,
i have to give in to you.
right ones i will,
but come on.
public transport,
everyone have equality, right?

Fuck.

okays enough of grumbles!
i need to get back to work now,
sighhhh.
it's piling up.

2008-11-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

i hope time can go a lil slower;

pretty alright week.
loveeee Wednesday cause it's retail therapy with Nana and Diann after school.
Diann is my new partner in crime.
a big NO NO to shop with her when i'm broke!
hahaha. <3

Tuesday was friendly at NP.
nothing much, cause we were all quite use to playing with them.
but the people there are really fierce.

day out with Boyf today.
met at City Hall and walked around.
i love photo hunt,
and Shokudo for dinner was satisfying.
Mango ice was fantastic.

Robinsons was having sales!
bought Poiful and some random biscuit which looked nice.
money is flowing away like water this week.
i'm pretty broke now!
CONTROLLLLLL.

anw i'm glad things are going back to the right track now.

okay, byebye!

2008-11-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

sunshine after rain;

okay it's week4 of school tomorrow.
time flies. i need to finish my burgernomics project, due soon.

Wednesday was a good catch up session was Joan, Alvina and Alyssa.
Joan and i waited for them for like 3 hours.
but did intensive btt studying.
and hard work paid off!
we passed. :D

Saturday night was spent in school. MM halloween night party.
nothing much, didn't go for nightwalk as either helper of participant cause i was lazy.
stayed in MM club and waited for Boyf to be back.

food was good.
or rather, we're all hungry!
left after, it was already 4am.

byebye!

2008-10-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

checkmate;

pretty simple Sunday with parents today.
IMM for the third time again this week.
i can be an IMM ambassador soon.
going back tmr again to collect my jeans cause sent it for alteration!
Z O M G.

aunt's place for dinner after.
i felt love by the simple things adults does.
uncle gave me an extra fishball in my bowl of soup today and i felt, happy.
i'm quite a person who appreciates and remember every simple things that others do for me.
bad or good?

glad that there's no school tomorrow!
or i'd be doing my tutorials now.
(:

bye all!

2008-10-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

stay calm, i know i can;

finally, laptop is back.

you know i really have a taste of what people say, Acer sucks.
and it really did.
hopefully this one will last sometime and stop giving me problems.

okay Aunt's wedding today at Conrad.
food was fantastic,
ambiance was good,
people were nice.

training has been really hectic these week since school started.
timetable is packed, then training straight after class on Tuesdays and Thursday.
zomg,
i need a break!
GIVE ME A B R E A K!
glad that Monday is a public holiday.
a day away from school.

school was ooookay so far.
except 8am lessons every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.
i was only on time for once,
that very one time when i met Leon on the bus!
saviour!

wednesday is good,
cause there's gems.
coughs.

i'm getting a lil random here.

okay i'm lazy to go on.
takecareeeeee(:

2008-10-13T21:58:00.001+08:00

relax; all i wna do.

school started already!

i told myself to be punctual to be early for classes today but wells, i was STILL lateeeee, by half an hour. thankgod the lecturer is nice and did not give a good lecture on the first day of school. glad to see classmates again and all their nonsense. (:
finally saw Sherlim tooooooo. she's like missing in action, like me!

training tomorrow. last 2.4km test, friendly with NP and RP.
seriously i still feel the fear when i play with these schools, maybe more confidence is all i need. if i think we're better, we are! come on clare, ANGELS CAN DO IT! :D

ended on a happy note today. met boyf after school to Bugis. his schedule seems so pack with driving and FYP. sucks.
he's taking his driving test on Thursday and i really hope he can pass! (: best wishes! clare yong yuan zhi chi ni!

ooh, i got the urge to get a digital camera for my own use! :S

okay just random! byeeeee all.

2008-10-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

back to reality;

home after 4 long days. Ice, Sleepover, Raya Outing with Angels&Burners.

Ice was alright. it was more of a caught up with old friends for me rather than making new ones. probably i was too comfortable in my own zone this year and not opening out to others. it was still nice to see all the lovable people. (:
Sleepover was quality time spent though short, but sweet.

went to meet the Angels&Burners after. no clothes to change and have to borrow from Joan! Thanks love for bringing clothes for me. i swear i was super under-dressed. hahaha. and i realise malay cookies and chips are niceeeeeee. pictures when i get them!

can't believe school's gonna start soooo soon! it's like over in a blink of eye. i do miss classmates and those nonsense we talk at every break, the food (my fav fish meat noodle) and the environment. at least it freed me from work, right right right!? timetable suck pretty much cause i have three days of 8am classes and i foresee myself being late. it's not that i don't wna be punctual! i promise to make a little bitttttt more effort!

i need to go shopping soon. i miss those shopping company (Cousin, Alvina, Yanli, Alyssa and all, clique, boyf).
i am missing a lot of people suddenly when i just saw them not long ago! Boyf, Alvina, Sports Club peeps, Joan, Angels)
i really want to shop some day after school! pleaseeeeeeeeeee.

okay i'm in for a good rest tomorrow and volunteer work at Changi Beach for Safra Quadlathon this sunday morning! takecare all. :D

ooh yar. my Vaio is DEAD. it just died so suddenly and i got myself a Acer. many is telling me Acer is laggy, pleaseeeeee be nice to me alright my dear laptop.

2008-10-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

searching my soul;

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your
blog
___________________________________________________________________

Starting time: 2342
Name: Chew Aiting Clare
Sisters: None
Brothers: None
Shoe size: Fiveeeee
Height: 158cm, S H O R T
Where do you live: Bukit Panjang
Favourite drinks: Green Tea, Bubble Tea, Sprite, Barley
Favourite breakfast: MacDonald's Hotcakes

Have you ever

Been on a plane: Yeap
Swam in the ocean: Nooooo, Singapore doesn't have an ocean, do we?
Fallen asleep at school: Simple as A B C
Broken someone's heart: Guess so.
Fell off your chair: Don't Remember.
Waited for someone to call: Duhhhhh!
Saved emails: Yahhh
What is your room like: Simple; Bed, Wardrobe, Mirror, Ironing board, TeeVee
What's right beside you: Phone, Sofa
What is the last thing you ate: Chicken Chop!

Ever had

Chicken pox: Nopeeee
Sore throat: Who doesn't?
Stitches: Nopeeeee
Broken nose: Nopeeeee

Do you

Believe in love at first sight: Nopeeeee
Like picnics: Once in awhile, quite romantic! :D

Who was/were the last person

You danced with: Danced? maybe at camp? Haowei? i dont dance lahhh!
Last made you smile: Reeve Seah
You last yelled at: Reeve Seah toooo. :S

Today did you

Talk to someone you like: Yeah.
Kissed anyone: Yeahhhh.
Get sick: Nopeeeee
Talk to an ex: Nopeeeee
Miss someone: Yeah!
Eat: Yes' breakfast, lunch, dinner!
Best feeling in the world: Seeing your loved one happy beacause of you!
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yes, loads of them. but i hugged Spongebob that Reeve bought.
What's under your bed: Nothing?
Who do you really hate: ssssshhhhh, i do hate someone to the core now!
What time is it now: 1149

Random

Is there a person who is on your mind now: Yeap!
Do you have any siblings: i wished for a elder brother.
Do you want children: Definitely; but i'm afraid of the pain.
Do you smile often: Most of the times
Do you like your hand-writing: so-so.
Are your toe nails painted: nopeeee.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Parent's.
What color shirt are you wearing now: lousy billabong shirt.
What were you doing at 7.00 p.m. yesterday: Sleeping; it's public holiday!
When did you cry last: Yesterday night, when i was telling Boyf my scary dream.
Are you a friendly person: Guess so?
Do you have any pets? Nope. wish to have a dog. hahah.
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: At home.
Did you hold hands with the person who mean anything to you now: Nopeeeee
Do you sleep with the TV on: Nooo. hahaha
What are you doing right now: Blogging, Watching Tv.
Have you ever crawled through a window: Nopeeeee, so dangerous!
Can you handle the truth: Cant handle also must learn to.
Are you too forgiving: Forgiving and forget easily cause i'm forgetful.
Are you closer to your mother or father? Both so-so.
Who was the last person you cried in front of: Boyf?
How many people can you say you've really loved: 2
Do you eat healthy: i eat anything i want.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: dont think so
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: Yeahhhh
IF you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: Sleep or torture boyf.
Are you confident: Nopeeeee

5 things I was doing 10 years ago

1. Studying in Greenridge Primary.
2. Learning Ballet!
3. Learning the piano?
4. watching tv and sleepover and aunt's place
5. I DON'T KNOW!

5 things on my to-do list today

1. Training at School.
2. Work
3. Workk
4. Workkk
5. Workkkk

5 snacks I enjoy

1. Natural Confectionary Dinosuars
2. anything that i like or feel like eating.
.
.
.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire

1. Buy everything and Anything i want!
2. Go overseas.
3. Revamp my room.
4. Learn driving and buy car?
5. Enjoy life with people i loveeeee.

5 of my bad points

1. Paranoid
2. Bad tempered
3. Cry Baby
4. Sensitive
5. Indecisive

5 people I tag

Joan
Yanli
Elaine
Andy
Fariz

2008-10-01T14:11:00.001+08:00

it comes from nothing at all;

Angel's sentosa outing last tuesday! it was a blast, cause most of us had not had beach training before. (:

i got the angel's fire burning in me.

seniors. i know we all look like kids. the sun was hot and we can barely open our eyes.

so, counting down to the end of work! 3.5 more days! i really can't wait for saturday! :D

ooh, it's children's day today! Boyf bought me children's day present cause i asked for it! puppet barney, another word search book (it's gonna take me years cause i'm still stuck at #25 of my current book) and marshmallow! heeeeee, thanks.

ice camp is coming up on Tuesday, i've got no idea if i'll enjoy it cause i missed prep camp due to work. but just hope it'd be fun.

gems registration soon toooooo. i really hate gems.
was suppose to go City Plaza was couins for cheap thrills but was cancelled *pissed off i swear*
and sorry angels for not going for the Mahjong session, i msged Joan ans we were both tooooo lazy and tired.

2008-09-21T14:12:00.001+08:00

still the same;

okay work for one and a half week already.
i really feel like giving up and just stay home and slack all day ong,
but for the money, HANG IN THERE CLAREEEEEE.

training and friendly on thurs was great.
i thought i never had this feeling for a longgg time already.
i enjoy touch, and those company.

though i might be missing out a lot of outings and lunch/dinner with the Angels,
but i'm still glad they're well.

Chinese Garden on friday with Boyf.
the lightnings are uber cuteeeeee.
esp the badbadtzmaru and frog.
heeeeee(:
make the last day of the week happy!

halfday work on Saturday then met up with Cousin for lunch.
Shokudo at Raffles City.
i thought it was nice and i like the idea of food bazaar concept.
i want to go again and try the other food! :D

then met up with Boyf.
went Nike and thought of using the Nike voucher that i have.
decided on a jacket but white in size S is sold out at all the 3 outlets i went (Suntec, Marina Square, Cineleisure)
maybe god's telling me not to buy?
fateeeeeeee.
bought Green nike lanyard instead.

Queensway after.
bought Dickies backpack.
the same as Charlene from touch.
contemplating for a longggg time,
cause didn't want to get the same initially,
but that's the nicest and i really like it,
sooooo...
SORRY CHARLENE!

this morning Serene msg-ed and said she got the same backpack too!
ZOMGGGGG.
how popular, how common.
boyf got eastpak.

Tuesday is Sentosa outing.
prolly i'll take a day off or halfday to join the girls.
i do need to get a life!

you know sgspree has been cheating money!
the exchange rate now is only 1.43smthhhhhh,
but some even charge up to 1.48 at their sprees!

wanted to get F21 tops but decided not to cause it's really wayyyy to high!
hope Cousin open the spree soon so she can get it for me.
P L E A S E!

now, i can't wait for my online shoes to come!

2008-09-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

black and light;

first day of work was a-o-kay.
just that it's tiring to stare at the desktop for 8 hours everyday.
all i did was type type and type.

suddenly i realise that except my secondary school clique, i don't know which group of friends would always remember everyone's presence and ask when someone is not around.

classmates, Sports club, Angels, Ice Camp friends.
seems a lot, but ever wondered,
who really treat you real,
and who really notice your presence and missing?

probably i'm busy working now that i have this feeling. i dont know why too.

wells, i don't wna elaborate.

eeewwww,
hate to be feeling so.

BYE THEN!

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEP11 BABIES ONG ZHIYUN AND ANG KAILIN! :D
kailin: sorry that i'm working and prolly can't join for steamboat after my training! (:
takecareeeeeee.

2008-09-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

i believe in silence;

period and cramps totally came at the wrong time.

skipped training today cause cramps was killing me.
i feel a lil guilty!
sorry girls.

tomorrow's first day of work.
i hope it'd be fine!
prayingggggggg very very hard!

saw Joan at lakeside mrt.
she's working hard!
:D

sighhhh.

2008-08-31T23:15:00.003+08:00

away;

okay, exams are over.
i hope i'm gonna enjoy holidays,
but at the same time,
WORK TO EARN MONEY SO I CAN GO FOR RETAIL THERAPY!
heeeeeeee.

Friday was Teacher's day celebration.
went back to Dunearn,
met the people again.
and Elaine lovely too!
hey dear, if you read this,
i'll reply your mail soon!
i know it's been longgggg.
:D

RASF open house then Commex on Saturday.
thought me a lesson.
don't ever go for both at the same day!
hahaha.
my legs was superrrrr tired.

i was trying to be funny; JianYao's shades.

backviews;

pilot Marcus Yee took the photo for us!
hahaha.
Fart thought he was cuteeeeee.

Bindy's birthday celebration after.
it was a surprise!
hahaha
i love the polar puffs and cakes mango cake!
GOODLUCKS FOR YOUR PRELIMS BINDY POH! :D
we've beem friends for soooo many years already,
ZOMG.
maybe i'll get to see her have a boyf, get married and give birth too?
hurrrrrr.

i hope my spree items and blouse comes soon! :D

ps: i hope to go for a holiday with Boyf all of a sudden, even if it is Malaysia!

2008-08-24T23:08:00.002+08:00

now i know how can a person get no matter who you are to him.

it's okay,
for now,
STAR-DEE!

2008-08-19T14:22:00.000+08:00

wishing upon a star;

it's already tuesday!!
exams in 2 days time.
tell me i won't fail.

results have been badddddd last year,
it got better but still not good enough.
sighhhhhh.

i got potong red bean ice cream, natural confectionary co dinosaurs and oreo wafer sticks to keep my mouth occupied while studying at home for the next 2 days. thanks boyf. :D

i can't wait for thursday to come, 1st paper to end and maybe i can see the idiot! (:

2008-08-17T14:03:00.000+08:00

wanderer above the clouds.

okay exams are finally coming, which means, i've completed another semester! something to be happy about? or probably not? i'll definitely miss school and studying when i graduate in 3 semester time.

pol-ite's over, presentations over, ICA and test over, poly50 is over! ooh we got 2nd for poly50! (: something to be happy about cause we have $40 nike voucher!! HEEEEEEE.

so basically, i just stay home to watch olympics, school or home to TRY to study! life's been kind of boring but i guess it'll be like this for quite some time. sighhhhhh. i can't wait for exams to end!

nothing much, i'm just random.

i'm pissed with my laptop cause it always says 'Low Disk Space' no matter how many things i try to delete and remove, irritatingggggg.

2008-07-27T14:40:00.000+08:00

before tomorrow comes;

okay, pol-ite 0809 is over.
i've got my first pol-ite medal,
though it's only bronze,
but i know we've all gave in our very best,
played hard together as a team.

after one of the games,
i felt pretty useless.
i felt that i played sucky that day,
but someone told me,
this is a team game,
we wouldn't have gone through the battle without anyone of us.
i can't wait for the photos now! :D

a short break from touch now,
and time for studies.
semestral exams are coming,
accounts makeup test on wednesday,
ecm project deadline etc.
the list may probably go on and on.

caught Prom Night with cousins this weekend,
we all went in,
thinking that it would be some comedy,
ended up being a horrow flim!
ZOMG!!!
i did scare myself a little.
tsk tskkkkkk.

off to ECM project now!

boyf says i love to ask stupid questions. :O

2008-07-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

POLY-ITE COMING MONDAY!
GO ANGELS.

AFTER SO MANY TRAININGS, CAMP, CLASSROOM THEORY AND OUTING,
IT'S TIME TO PROVE OURSELVES,
AND SHOW OTHERS WHAT WE'VE GOT.

REMEMBER OUR BABY ANGELS ARE AWAITING OUR GOOD NEWS AND THEY'RE ALWAYS WITH US! :D

IF WE THINK WE CAN, WE CAN!
:D

LET'S MAKE THIS A MEMORABLE SEASON!

2008-07-14T10:41:00.000+08:00

i am mentally and physically drained.
project submissions, training and pol-ite.

i think the 2 weeks ahead gonna be a test for my mental strength,
and how much myself and the angels want the championship.

training tomorrow, tuesday, thursday and i think most probably Saturday.
pol-ite everyday for the week after.

god, give me the mental strength.

i'm terribly burnt for youth touch at turf city yesterday.

2008-07-05T14:54:00.000+08:00

two words; tired

this week pass pretty quickly, with lots of things happening.
from good to bad, and bad to well, everythinggggg.

Trainings have been fine. everyone's working very hard, including me.
i had a sense of satisfaction after Tuesday's training, but i thought i didn't do as well on Thursday.
prolly it's the 'girl's-problem' thing.
i skipped 2.4km run that day too, but i'm gonna do it after training tomorrow.
which is like OhMyGod cause i think i'll be drained by then.
but no choice, pol-ite is coming up.

Farhani was sweet today to bring my belated birthday present all the way to Dover for me.
although i didn't say a lot of THANKYOUs, i really felt very grateful to have a friend like her.
although we didn't get to meet up or even talk much,
she didn't forget me,
and even prepared such a sweet present for me on my birthday! :D
i love love you!

finally a day out with boyf, after like 2 long weeks of not spending time together alone.
it was good i thought,
athough i still threw my tantrums.
but i guess that's just me.

we've been good to bad, bad to worse, and worse to well these 2 weeks.
i know we're both tired.
so i think we should just make an effort to understand each other and make everything well again.
we're a little different from the past now,
but i think,
we're still great now.
all we need is, communication.

the 2 weeks have been really a torture sometimes,
and i'm glad friends are around.
Alvina, Yanli, Bindy, Haowei, Nicholas Khoo, Glenn, Sherwin, Weilong and Leon.
Thanks, for the care and concerns, i think i'm fine already.
clare will :D.

okays MST haven been good.
sometimes i just felt idiotic in the class.
i really need to buck up.
i don't always want to do badly.
i know i can,
pleaseeeee give me some concentration god?
sighhhhh.

that's about it.
i'm sleepy,
plus training at 830am tmr.

bye people!

2008-06-28T14:27:00.000+08:00

the weekends, as a last try.
if not, i guess i won't be so silly already.

i feel silly now.

or should i just pick myself up and start all over again?
it just hurts, really painful.

will someone tell me what to do?
a definite answer.

2008-06-22T06:02:00.000+08:00

thanks everyone who have wished and made my 18th different! :D

i am legal.

2008-06-18T15:36:00.000+08:00

JAZREEL IS SCARING THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!!!

2008-06-16T14:03:00.000+08:00

i love every single one of them. without them, i'd have died on Friday night.

I SURVIVED TRAINING CAMP AND I'M BACK! :D
i swear my calfs are HUGE/ENORMOUS now! Joan and myself are verY veRY vERY VERY sad about the fact it grew bigger. ahhh.

it hurts like crazy for the past 2 days already. i've been walking very slowly, reducing the amount of distance i can cover to the minimum. walking is a problem, walking up or down the stairs is a pain in the ass!

but wells, i know every single Angel is happy that we pulled through camp. we became closer, and prolly grew up in this camp. although we were all tired and dont even felt like moving at all, we hung on, and encourage each other! I LOVE THEM. :D

now it's time to take a break from Touch and do some serious studying. we are all excited about the names for the upcoming pol-ite team, everyone wants to make it, so do i. we can just hope and pray for the best now, knowing that we've tried our very very best.

studying at Woodlands library with Bindy was productive today. i almost covered the whole of my ECM and one third of accounts.

i'm gonna be 18 soon. ohmygoddddd. *winks winks!*

before that,

Tagged by dearest.

Write 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same amount of people as minutes it takes you to write the facts.

1. i stopped eating Chocolates.
2. i can't live without sweets for a day.
3. i hate to see doctor, even when i'm not feeling well.
4. i have a slight toothache that acts up once in a blue moon.
5. my calfs grew.
6. i haven club before.
7. i never dyed my hair before.
8. i am standing at 1.58m tall.
9. i whine a lot.
10. i love watching guys play basketball.
11. my jersey number is 24.
12. i dislike water sports.
13. i enjoy going to camps.
14. i love to eat Fish and Co.
15. i still like Edison Chen although he did some bad things.
16. i am a heavy sleeper.
17. i am a single child.
18. i think life's unfair.
19. i quite dislike my course but i think it will bring me big money in future.
20. i loveeeee Macdonald's breakfast!

Joan, Jazreel, Serene, Yanli, Kuangwei, Andy.

takecare everybody! studyhard.

2008-06-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

OFF TO TRAINING CAMP!
ahhh, wish me all the best.

i think it's gonna be HELL.

2008-06-01T14:52:00.000+08:00

a long awaited break.

okays it's been longgggg. Joan was complaining that she always sees the same thing cause i didn't update!

Firstly, on 24th May, WE WON THE CUP CHAMPIONS AT M1 TOUCH RUGBY SERIES ROUND 2! an improvement from the previous time! :D

look at how trilled Jaz is!

the team!

a treat to island creamery after by Clar! (:

i love Yici's hilarious face!

On the same night, Rachel's birthday celebration!

happy birthday! :D

the people on that day.

Esplanade.

random.

birthday girl!

Bestest.

yesterday, Angel's Graduation Dinner.

preparation.

our notes to seniors.

Coach, Delene.

Clar's fairy wings + our angel's wing.

Captain and Vice Captain for season 07/08.

Nana and BeePing.

the skit cast.

graduated seniors!

everyone yesterday.

Current Batch.

year3s.

that's about it.
okay my tooth ache.
i want to go GSS.

Fitness on Monday morning.
then probably queensway to buy my boots (okay my boots tore on training on thursday),
watching Narnia after?
1st day of holidays! :D :D
enjoy before we need to prepare for MST.

oohyar!
i want a bagpack, yici influenced me.

2008-05-17T14:21:00.000+08:00

save me from this.

projects, trainings, classes and lectures are flooding me!

i've been skipping morning classes these days cause i can't wake up on time. i need self-discipline. i tried to attend trainings even though i was feeling really tired cause i kind of promised Brenda to be there. i wna improve.

projects are flooding me. it's been so much of projecting done these days. even on msn RIGHT NOW, i'm discussing about my project.
1. RWPS work to be submitted on blackboard by Monday 12pm.
2. CRM questionnaire to be submitted by Monday 12pm.
3. ECM submission by Friday 5pm next week.
4. MA1 project by Friday tutorial the week after.
5. MA1 test on Week7.
6. RWPS test on Week7.
(ohmy, i didn't realise there was so many after i list them down!)

i will survive through all these.

skipped training yesterday and studied for MA1 quiz today. okays i didn't do well. many got full marks but wells, i didn't. nothing to be proud of. but i know i've studied and tried. blame on my STM and carelessness.

went for a run with ShingChoon and WeiYee this evening after school. one round outside of school. felt good after completing the run. thanks ShingChoon for encouraging me through the run cause i really felt like giving up at the very last stretch. (: i did 'compensation' run for training yesterday.

next week is packed with trainings too.
Tomorrow(Saturday): Friendlies at SAJC
Monday: Poly50 trg at AMK 8am.
Tuesday: 2.4km test and Touchrugby training.
Wendesday: BREAKKKKK.
Thursday: Touchrugby training.
Friday: BREAKKKK!!
Saturday: M1 touch rugby carnival round 2.
Sunday: Clark Quay 20.
(will i die from all these?)

can i have more time, more energy, better brains and better concentration!
FA lecture today was a torture, i couldn't understand what June Lin was saying. she was like blabbering alien language to me.

back to project discussion. bye people.

2008-05-14T14:58:00.001+08:00

TAGGED BY JOAN ONG.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
26? i don't know too. just not too old will do. i don't have this kind of plannings.

2. What I want the most now?
do well in studies.
play well for Touch Rugby.
More time with friends.
More MONEY.

3. Who is the person you trust most?
MOST? can i name a few?
Boyf, ALvina, Joan, Bindy, Haowei, Lezlie.

4. Do you think u have enough confidence?
no. i lack of it, seriously.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
i wna be a kid. no worries all day.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes, it's scientific proven right?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Family.
Close friends.
Boyf.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
i don't. call me pessimistic for that.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
yes, unless he feels smth towards me too.

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your the other half?
the basic, no lies. :D

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
it's sensitive!

12. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
yes of course.

13. Do you believe in God?
yes, but life's unfair.
i hate it.

14. What do you see in your future?
LOST.

15. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend /girlfriend?
no idea.

16. At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
i still think feeling safe is good.

17. What kind of friend you hope to be in your friends eyes?
someone whom they trust and can cry to.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
that's too many to mention.

19. What's your weak point ?
weak, low confidence, always needs company, relying on others, lack of self control.

20. What do you dread most!
RWPS TUTORIALS.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question.make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list.list them out at the end of this post.Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

[ according to alphabetical ]
Reeve.
Serene.
Haowei.
Yanli.
Iris.
Nicholas.
Jennifer.
Entong.

enough of quizzes.
i'm tired from training today.
i'm drained! :(
last week was pretty hectic.
training on Tuesday and Thursday, M1 finals on Wednesday.
Saturday was like the day for me to rest.

Cup runner up for M1 touch rugby Series round 1.
bye all. i'm lazy to continue.

2008-05-08T13:20:00.000+08:00

i swear i have the biggest ulcer ever, plus the 2 is combining into one ENORMOUS one.

it srsly hurts like crazy.

i'm very pissed right now.

My left side of lips are swelling too.

damnnnn it.

2008-05-04T13:01:00.001+08:00

by the edge of the world.

alrights. 3 weeks of school is gone. i'd say i tried to study, yeah TRIED.
i didn't skip classes anyhow-ly like how i did last year, though this year there was even less motivations to go to class.
but wells, one or two tutorials and lectures, i still missed it. xD

training is gonna take up most of the time and weekends i guess. they're so many carnivals, friendlies and trainings coming up. Brenda says there'd be training on saturday soon. ohmygoddd. we shall train hard for this season, and hope i'd hang in there all the way!

fitness with Joan this morning, and i swear cramps was killing me. sighhhh.
then lunch at Subway at IMM. I SAW ELAINE TOH! ohmygod, i miss her like a thousand times can. it's been sooooooo long since i met her. i can't even remember when! :D i'm glad we met by chance, but do meetup soon aight! we have loads to catch up on.

i'm looking forward to training on tuesday cause the year1s are coming to join us. if all of them turn up, i think the field will be so packed! SO EXCITING! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT HAPPEN THAT DAY! hopefully they'll all turn up.

oohyar, i cut my hair today too!

more projects and intensive studying to be done. i don't want to be a last minute person anymore! :D

OOH AND ALVINA GOH! I HOPE YOU ENJOYED YOUR BIRTHDAY. SO SORRY I CAN'T BE THERE BUT YOU KNOW MY HEART IS WITH YOU! I LOVE YOU. YOU'RE FINALLY 18 AFTER WAITING FOR SO LONG!

2008-04-20T06:20:00.000+08:00

i wish i could run away from all these shits.

now i understand, what's the meaning of 'shit happens'.

this week was really full of shit. everything wasn't going well starting from the first day of school.

i lost my phone, i couldn't get transferred into dbf06, i got pang seh-ed by the guys who once promised that they wouldn't, i fell ill on Friday and was crying like no one's business, i missed m1 touch preliminary rounds, i miss first day of gems (no big deal though) and basically, i was just feeling like shit the whole week.

the thing that disturbs me most was my class now. i've tried all that i could have done to get into dbf06, but wells, i can't. i shall live on with it for the next 2 years. mind you people, it's not one semester or one year, it's 2 full years, the rest of my poly life. you all might say i can make new friends all over again, but don't say what you think is easy to do cause it's not as easy as how it came out from your mouth.

sometimes i tell myself that i shouldn't blame the 2 guys, but sometimes, i just can't bring myself not to. i know it's my own problems for not being able to get my ass in there, but it was their fault for breaking promises and went without Yanli and i. call yourself friends for being 'so-nice'.

but thanks everyone who have tried their very best with us, i really appreciates it and i won't cry ever again, for this thing. what done is done, right? no use saying sorry, guilty or anything. humans always put themselves in front of others. i dont blame their human nature.

Yanli, i promise to go through these 2 years of shit with you alrights. we'll either go into a class tgt, or stay on and live with it for the rest of our lives. we'll try to make friends again and everything would be fine, i hope/pray.

i'm sick of all these, bye people.

i haven met SPSSC peeps for a longggg time. thanks to these shits and myself for being weak and falling ill. i miss them!

PS: go to this link and read the books, interested please pm me. thanks
goodybooks

2008-04-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

i wonder if i was right;

i've been bored at home the whole day. blog hopped and something strike me.

life is full of goals. whether you admit it or not, be it a big or teeny goal to achieve, everyone have a goal to look ahead of themselves.

i realised i've been missing out too many people in my life. those who were once close to me, seem to have drifted. probably that is life. everyone have to move on, know new people, new environment and everything.

Serene and Farhani is busy with Netball A' divs, schooling.
Bindy? prolly with catching up in her studies and Basketball A'divs.
Team Angels is training to prove the best out of us.
Alvina should be busy with dance and school when term starts.
Yanli is busy training for Canoe Polo, and we promise to study hard this year.
Joan is trying to learn to be independent and training hard for touch.
Lezlie is prolly working hard, earning money, practising with him band, church and projects which are coming up soon?
Weiyee told me his basketball trainings are finally starting again?
the last time Bryan told me is that he wants to play for NP for ivp tennis.
Sherlim is training hard for her Muay Thai exam?
Elaine is studying and training hard for soccer A' divs?
Boyf is studying for driving, fyp and school?
the year3s who have graduated, kuang jason and all, might be busy working before army starts for them.

goal;
A desire or an intention becomes a goal if and only if one activates an action for achieving it.

my goals?
studying hard, train hard for Touch Rugby, spend enough time with different groups of people, nothing much actually.
but it's these goals which pushes us forward everyday.

it feels scary when i dont know what to do after i graduate from school in 2 years time. life without goals is like body witdout blood, empty.

okays i'm damn random.
takecare all. all the best for the new school year.

2008-04-13T14:36:00.000+08:00

SPORTS CAMP 0809 IS OVERRRRRRR!!

i miss camp, and everyone there.

i wna say thanks to the whole committee, for stnading by each other no matter what happened, before during and after the camp. we know we're one awesome family!

camp was enjoyable, esp when glenn asked me to be a GL instead of food i/c. food isn't fun at all, poor joan got to take over everything from me. GL was a brand new experience, and thanks Haowei for the days in camp! without such a partner, we wouldn't have played the role well!

team heroes was people with all kinds of different personalities, though the had some arguements initially but i thought that brought them closer tgt and know how to tolerate with each other's flaws! 3 cheers for heroes freshies.

Alvina and Weiyee played a big role for me in this camp. the never fail to cheer me up when i was tired, when i'm down, out of ideas, busy and everything. :D THANKS PEEPS.

everyone did a great job, esp Fariz and Sherlim. impressive.

Shim night was BEST, i swear. who dares to say they didn't enjoy that!

let pictures speak the others man. (:

the very first day of camp.

partner!

HEROESSSSS(:

sport camp.

we have won the war!

smiles of satisfactions!

ladies of disco night!

disco night :D

2008-03-20T07:52:00.000+08:00

enrolment nearly got me dead for the past week. i've been going back to school more often than going anywhere else and the time spent in school altogether is more than what i've slept. but wells, it's finally over! i guess we should really get some good rest. prep camp and FOC coming up real soon! GOSHHHHH.

last weekend was Junior Tournament! Baby angels went into the Cup Championships, and although we lost, we knew we've gave in our very best and everyone did well. this competition is only once in a lifetime and we all know we've grown through this competition. 3 cheers for baby angels! :D

Lovely Seniors.

outing tomorrow with Cousins! i need to shop. (:

2008-03-03T15:03:00.000+08:00

i know i've got that thing of yours in red;

these 2 weeks had been pretty, eventful?
Sports Club Freshmen Orientation GL selections, Touch Trainings, Zoo Trip, Work, Movies and love. (:

i don't wna elaborate cause it'll bore you people with words and more words!

missed Thursday's training cause i was working. sighhhh. sadly to say, i've already quitted after 2 days of working there. it's been really stressful for the 2 days over there and i think i couldn't take it anymore. 3 most important people in my life asked me to quit, so yeah, i'm not jobless again!

didn't go for IT show's interview and now i think i can bore myself at home everyday till FOC and look forward to the new year to start. i promise to studyhard. results was wonderfully bad.

enrolment, meetings and prep camp is coming up. my march will be so filled with school.
i thought i could earn some cash cause i'm running low on it this month. god damn.

okays. 5km with joan tomorrow. i hope we'll pull through it! (:

i'm looking forward to Night Safari now! HEE.

LEAP YEARS WAS AWESOME! :D

2008-02-18T07:01:00.001+08:00

i know i'll never be alone like that again.

well, PJC touch carnival yesterday. Angels were broken into Team Kit and Team Kat. (:
i remembered i hurt myself the other time at PJC too! it's time to pick up from where i fell!

Team Kat - Clar, Jaz, Szeyee, Mer, Joan, Delene, Syahida and me. (clar and Mer are missing in the photo!)
we came in first!

the finals was nerve wrecking! their try came in first and it was partly my fault. felt sooooo guilty and was praying very hard that we would score! the next try came in very suddenly by Jaz and i screamed! at least now i feel a lil better! sudden death and Clar scored! (:

saw Andy. he was having his orientation camp. sometimes it's good to see someone close to you around. :D

now i've got a pretty bad sunburn. my shoulders hurt and itch! AHHHH. will someone be nice and give me a bottle of banana boat aloe vera cream? face are all dried up too! ):

i wna catch 3 movies!
1. PS I LOVE YOU
2. JUNO
3. SWEENY TODD.

ANGELS! (:

2008-02-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

don't say anything more;

exams are finally over, one word to describe, HAPPINESS! i've always been looking forward to this period. when i can have holidays without any worries, except the day when results will be out. TSK.

went for Angel's bonding camp the previous 2 days. it was alrights, just that it felt a lil weird without paying touch with the girls. we're angels what! hahaha. got to know everyone better through this camp, and we must really thank the camp committee for putting in so much effort! :D

pyjamas night was a cool one! fun fun and more fun! but i think i suck. hahaha.
some random pictures.

i need a job. anyone any recommendations?
i'm lazy to continue! i'm a lazy.

PS: THE CLIQUE! PLEASE VISIT THE BLOG CAUSE WE HAVE A PLAN FOR CNY! SEE YOU PEOPLE SOON. (:(:

2008-01-28T14:55:00.000+08:00

pick me up from this stranded island;

okays. Stats paper is over. i think i'm pretty much screwed cause of carelessness, short termed memory and my 'x' and 'y'. GOSH. well it's over, i just hope i don't forward. i really studied and practice, i just wna pass it. sighhhhh.

i seriously hate exams this time round, i don't know why. no motivation to study, headaches and low concentration level. i just wna whine.

Jason Stanley is talking to me online and he say he don't want to graduate. right now i want to graduate, but i don't know what i'll think 2 years down the road, with all the friends i've made in Poly. perhaps i'll think the same as him then.

goodnight all. i'm tired.

2008-01-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

don't judge when you don't know the whole picture;
cause i'll see you as the big loser.

4 modules officially down today. bye to IDEAS, CRS, MOB and ITAB! i'm pretty glad.

exams in 2 weeks time. it's time to really study. i don't wna forward.

the week was a torture. problems and never ending problems. 2008 had a bad start. but i'm glad through this week there are people around who really helped a lot. Alvina, Yanli, Jason, Kuang, and Elaine. i appreciate these people, seriously.

IVP for Angels ended. it was sad when you can only stand at the sideline cheering them on but not anything else. Angels tried their best, and i'm proud of the girls. let's train harder! :D

2008-01-05T16:20:00.000+08:00

i will study hard.
i will take care of my back.
i will drink more water.
i will find good food.
i will heed all your words.
i will sleep earlier.
i will try to bear with things and not blow up unnecessarily.
i will try to go home earlier from school everyday.
i will try to listen to mummy and not quarrel with her.
i will remember everything you say.
i will remember everything you have done.
i will remember 831 forever.
i will remember 4 January forever.
i won't listen and get sad over unwanted comments.
i won't scream when i see cockroaches and lizards in the middle of the night

thanks for the memories.

do remember what i last said to you.

2008-01-03T14:21:00.000+08:00

a smile is all that i wanted to give;

a new year. 2007 seems to pass in a blink of eye. i could still remember the days i was working during this period last year, and panicking everyday waiting for O's results to be released. okayy i shan't elaborate. i'd only bore people.

i met up with the clipue for dinner at sakura in science centre during new year's eve and i'm glad i've met them like after so long. and caught up with Bryan too. he's still one great buddy who i can talk to, but please, STOP MAKING FUN OF ME WILL YOU! sometimes i just feel like killing him. his words can be really crude sometimes! countdown over at Bindy's place and i went home cause i got to meet up with cousins on new year's day! sorry peeps.

pictures when i receive them.

heard that brenda's gonna choose the team for ivp tomorrow. back pain totally sucks, stopping me from playing touch. sighhhh. i wna play so much but my back isn't giving in to me. i'll be going down to watch them train and cheer for those who got into the team. nothing more i can do. i don't wna come home not being able to bend and get a hell of scoldings for attending training when i haven't even recover.

but that also means, i must wait till next year for pol-ite and ivp. guess it's all fated! SIGHHHHH.

exams are coming soon too. plus it's the project rushing week. so many things to do and so lil time left. i better get cracking now.

dinner with joan, jaz and candy was funny. they're real jokers man! esp joan and her LAMES. we just feel like pinching and slapping her sometimes! HA.

off to projecting!

happy new year everyone. forget all the past, embrace the future with a smile.

2007-12-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

pictures speaks more than a thousand words.
BBQ at alvina's place. 231207. (:

alex the himbo-bo!! acting retarded.

Lezlie can play piano!

on the way back from Giant.

they were the 'sai gang' warriors.

Lezlie's cute spongebob boxers!

the camwhore!

Boss, Mao and the girls.

Angmoh and Bimbo.

Loser camp chief who can't start fire. BOO.

alex who started fire.

the hotdogs are nice. :D

Maureen, me, Alvina.

LOVES.

WE LOVE JOAN!

i was cooking my corn!

:D

those idiots.

more idiots.

Sleepover!

like some Ahbengs&lians who have nothing better to do in the middle of the night. :(

SWEETS!

LimBang Park.

Fariz the lame-mo superman.

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL! :D

2007-12-17T14:37:00.000+08:00

i guess this time it's for real;
a real hope, a real smile.

holidays, finally.

went to pray to grandpa in the morning but i was so reluctant to wake up initially. but anw it's the holidays, i can continue to sleep tmr so i shall be a filial girl for a day.

after went to Cousin Elicia's place as she's just given birth to a new life! another nephew! :D :D :D

Cousin Effie went too! she's been a great company today! well, though the day wasn't much of an excitement, it's still a happy day! i love chats with cousins and their presence, it just brighten up the day.

star awards just now. Ruien and Felicia Chin caught my attention today! they look great. (:

have to be in school tmr, tuesday, maybe wed and friday!
sighhhhh.
please don't burn my holidays!

i think i should take this chance to meet up with some people who i haven met in a longgggg time.

2007-12-09T09:45:00.000+08:00

i wouldn't mind walking this whole path myself, with no one else.

okayy. it's been long since i blogged.

my laptop crashed a week ago and i was DESPERATE. loads of work to complete and i lost one source of entertainment. but thankgod someone managed to fixed it for me without going to the IT help desk at school for configurations. i've decided not to configure my laptop again as it totally screw things up.

Cousin's wedding last week. i've been attending cousins one wedding after another. they smile on their faces during wedding was really sweettttt. i cried at the church when Cousin and husband thank their parents with some short words. i'm not a crybaby, it was simply sweet.

finally most projects and work are done. i'm left with IDEAS and CRS presentation on monday and i could take a lil break off projects. can't wait for the coming holidays. plus, it's december and i got myslf into the Christmas mood already. Barbeque, christmas celebrations are being planned one by one, can't wait can't wait! :D hopefully 25th dec '07 would be a memorable one.

i heard some not so good things recently. and i mean, you either accept me for who i am or just not being friends at all. i don't need you to pretend yeah, and talk behind my back. call yourself a man for being so bitchy and gossipy. you'd have karma, i believe. i'll just wait and see and i won't feel sorry for you at all. thanks friends for being there. i know who are the true ones who i can talk to and pour sorrows to, and i'm glad to have these people around. (: your words wouldn't bring me down at all.

nothing much. i slept for 16hours today and i'm feeling refresh now, finally after one whole tiring week.

i haven spoke since the moment i woke up today.

2007-11-26T13:09:00.000+08:00

faked a smile, even when everything's not okay.

the week passed pretty quickly. and i can't believe it's already the end of week 9 of semester2. in no time, it's semestral exams. ooh! i can't wait for it to end and i can have a total break that i want from school work.

clare's proud of herself for her econs results. though comparing to others i might not have done as well, but i've done the best for econs in this test ever since the first test! (: great confidence booster. i should start studying and not disappoint anyone anymore! :D :D :D

on a lighter note, christmas is now officially one month away! i love christmas! barbeque on 23rd dec at my beloved Alvina's place. i can't wait for it and enjoy christmas though there's no snow in Singapore, but they'll be loads of love in the air!

Touch Carnival yesterday! Angels did really well yesterday and even though we lost at the very last minute of sudden death, we all know that we've given our 100percent and we should be happy with the results! GO SP ANGELS! and well done to the SP burners for getting cup champions! they're really good.

oohyar, i finally got my contact lenses today after being lazy for 2 weeks to go down and get them! eyesight remained the same! random.

Bestest Bindy is back from her OCIP! :D hope you'll get well soon alright! take extra care!
and daddy too. he's having diarrhoea. visiting the toilet have been his favourite past time for 2 days already! sighhhhh. :(

i'm happy today cause mummy cooked my one of my favourite soup! water cress soup!

here's one overdue picture that i suddenly thought of posting! Staff and Student Games '07!

2007-11-19T14:26:00.000+08:00

star; the one and only.

results are back. as bad as what i've imagined. nothing to brag about. i've said upteen times that i'll study and i'm really gonna put it into actions soon. i don't wna get the same kind of results for semestral exams. i can't afford to forward any modules. give me a pat on my shoulder as encouragement people. stop demoralising me. greatly appreciated.

towned with Mummy yesterday to get my dress for Cousin's wedding on the 1dec. okayy. white dresses are really hard to get but still i found one. phew! Cousin's are all getting married one by one recently. yeah. years passes by so soon! soon it'll be my turn? stupid.

watched Memoirs of a Geisha again. for gems project. okayy. it's draggy. i almost fell asleep, like what almost happen years ago when i watched it in the theatre. i still can remember whom i watched it with. proves that my memory isn't that bad yeah. okay random.

IDEAS presentation was okay on Monday i guess. at least we didn't screw anything up, though we didn't make it a great one though. IDEAS can be a chore, if we don't learn to appreciate it. whatever it is, it's just smth that we've got no choice but to do it.

school has been kind of boring recently. people are all having their exams. and goodlucks to Alyssa, my newly found gf for her MST and music exams. but don't brag that you dont have classes! we'll hang out again once your exams are OVER! (:

i've realise i've been visiting HollandV a lot recently and Alvina and Co. it's like... our routine if we want Subway or Cold Rock. good food are just simply irresistable.

Bindy isn't back from her OCIP trip to Vietnam. somehow somewhat, i've been not meeting the Clique for quite sometime. blame it that i'm the only one in SP. shitttttt. and Andy is flying off to Japan for his holiday. dear friend, please be nice and buy me something back! HA. xD

okayy. i'm lazy to continue. goodbye.

*mum was standing behind me when i blogged and she saw that i didn't do well for exams. she asked me not to waste money and study hard? is that what she meant by giving me encouragements? okayy. i'm so disappointed with her, but still, more of myself. i need some good words, not some insults. that wouldn't work for me.

clarechew is not feeling good now.

2007-11-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

i wish for another land, where no one knows me.

i've decided to keep the blog simple. a simple template with no tagboard. but you guys can comment if you want to. (:

IDEAS presentation up tomorrow. i guess it's gonna be...LAME!

i watched one of my favourite movie at home today. the day after tomorrow. i simply love it, don't ask me why.

went over to Sathish's house yesterday for Deepavali and pus it was his birthday. i swear his sister is cute but she's really quiet. she doesn't want to reply me when i talked to her. i give up. his family is really nice people! :D though the dishes was a lil spicy for me. after Sathish treated us to Swenson's ice cream and i went to town to meet Alvina, Elmer, Joey and Nic. weird combi we know. by the time i met them was already 8. dinner again and walked around. the guys was looking at girls and nic said it was a 'pretty ladies night'. i have no idea why too! went home at around 10. that's about it.

clare leads a boring life. HAHAH! (:

2007-11-08T16:32:00.000+08:00

i swear MST sucks. it's not surprising if i don't pass any papers. i shan't elaborate.

ideas can be such a bore till my classmates start to snap pictures. the other 3 are camera shys! :D

i can't wait for friday's 3pm when my exams are all finally over! i'm waiting. till next time.

2007-10-31T03:11:00.000+08:00

i found out some things, but i feign ignorance.

okayy. i'm back from SMAC nightwalk. i'd say my station is kind of SCARY? designated above LT5. it was freaking hot. alright. nothing much. we took a few pictures. and Alvina seriously look like Pikachu.

.

the other pictures are with Lina.

alright. i stayed up through the night. couldn't sleep in club last night. Borrowed laptop from Lezlie and wanted to watch High School Musical but i couldn't find the file so i didn't watch in the end. others was playing Risk while i surf the net. all went to sleep at around 6 in the morning and the only people left awake is Joan. we had some little random chats and went to have mac breakfast. YUMMY! mac breakfast is LOVEEEEE. (:

watched Sports Club vs Design Club's captain's ball intercons, clementi for lunch and home sweet home! bathed and slept like a pig till 9 when mummy was back with dinner! :D

i'm getting random at blogging these day.

lazy to start with my e-learning work. i've so much things yet so little time. banner painting in sch tmr. Touch at NTU on Wednesday. i need some time to study for MST, do my projects and meet up with friends! ):

i do hate e-learning.

replies to tags:
JENNIFER. yeah. like after so long! seeya around again soon! much loves. :D
EVEINE. ooh it's you! hurr. anyway study hard for MST. seeyou at week7!
FARIZ. dont leave your shit here pal. (:
HENRY. thanks yeah? hahah. you should sound more sincere!
KUANG. no i'm not. and goodlucks for intercons.

2007-10-21T12:15:00.000+08:00

i hope one day i'd be just us.

the show on channel 8 had just ended and i was seriously TOUCHED. mummy and i were crying. i have this sudden urge to blog about what i've felt towards l-o-v-e.

it's been long that i've not believe in that. as in, i do not think that anyone could accept me for who i am. i know i'm not perfect, and no one is. i'm willing to accept the one i love/like for his flaws. but i guess all humans are very realistic, they want to find the one who they think is best, and have the best.

i think 'love' is a very vague word. everyone have different definitions and way of looking at it. but to me, love is when i can trust a person wholly and accept him for who he is. i'm looking for my self-confidence now. i do admit that i always have quit low confidence about myself. one little word here and there might hurt inside, but i appear to be really fine. i show my dislikes for people. i wouldn't take an extra effort to suck up to people. maybe that's my weakness. i need to do something about myself.

it's been 8months since i'm single. everything seem to go well. i hope things will continue the way it is. i'll just let nature takes it's course. to have it, or to remain the way it is. if i'm willing... ... ... would you?

sometimes i just need someone to tell me, 'everything's gonna be fine, i'll be around for you.'

i'm not emo.

2007-10-18T14:11:00.000+08:00

you're the pills that made me smile.

i went back for touch training after 2 weeks. it didn't felt that bad afterall. it was raining initially and Joan, Delene and me was so reluctant cause we were feeling lazy. but i guessed we all didn't regret going for training yesterday. it's really good to train with Baby Angels. most of us are back for trainings. i'm glad with them around training!

nothing much about school. but i'm seriously getting lazy day by day. i'm lazy to wake up in the morning, resulting late-coming almost EVERYDAY? i know it's a very bad habit and i'm really trying hard to change it. why is there no straight bus from home to school. i hate changing bus, especially when i have to wait for 74 when sometimes it takes bloody long time to come!

i'm seriously craving for Subway and Starbucks now! oohman. will someone be nice and have them with me? hurr.

i know i'm having bad hair days. i just want it to grow fast. stop giving me unwanted comments. greatly appreciated.

alright. i shall stop here.

2007-10-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

you might be the reason for the smile on my face.

alright. this week passed rather quickly. classes are still boring as usual, i guess i don't have to say this at every post of mine.

first ever sports club women's soccer training on friday. Patrick was our 'coach'? hur. we all had fun though we can't really kick the ball well! but the girl from finland who's under exchange program at our school now is really good. i'm waiting to see her score a goal for us. one more training on monday to know our positions and the rules, wednesday would be our match with SP women's soccer team. ohhhhh man. Pat keep on saying that we have the chances of winning, but i srsly think that the chances are really low. DAMNNNNNNN. just hope we wouldn't embarrassed ourselves too much!

have been hanging out with the year1s of sports club and people we know from ICE camp. afterall we concluded that ice isn't that useless afterall because it did bring us together! :D and i'm glad that i found these people.

next week would be a hectic week.
Match with SP women's soccer, SPSS test, Econs Retest on wednesday.
ITAB2 quiz on thursday.

why does there seem to be so many things but so little time now!

and oohyes. join facebook! i swear it's fun, though it's kinda hard to manage it! (:

2007-09-30T12:47:00.000+08:00

person who tagged me-
ELAINE TOH! The one who always makes me feel better after a conversation.

2. my relationship with her-
her wonderful words, craziness over soccer, and whining over school.

3. my 5 impressions of her-
Crazy, Retarded, Talkative (like seriously Elaine!), Bimbotic at times?, True towards everyone

4. most memorable thing that she had done for me-
accompanying me through the days when I was really down and never fail to talk to me when I needed someone.

5. most memorable words that she said to me-
ooh shucks, I can’t remember. Too many well said words during those days.

6. if she becomes my lover, i will?-
go crazy and show her off to every guy and say, ‘NEH NEH NI POO POO!!’

7. if she is my lover, he has to improve on-
I have no idea.

8. if he becomes my enemy-
it’s never gonna happen so why waste my brain juice thinking about it!

9. if he becomes my enemy, the reason is-
…

11. my overall impression of him-
The totally awesome and original one.

12. how do i think people around me will feel about me?-
not for me to say!

13. the character i love about myself is-
aye? How would I know? Maybe I’m… friendly!?

14. on the contrary, what character i hate about myself-
for caring about what others said! (right someone?)

15. the most ideal person i would like to be-
I don’t wna be anyone, just MYSELF!

17. pass this quiz to 10 ppl
ROCK ON :D

1) SERENE
2) YANLI
3) JENNIFER
4) ELAINE , SP
5) JOAN
6) ALVIN
7) REEVE
8) KUANGWEI
9) HENRY
10) FARIZ

is no9 a male/female?
Male

if no1 and no10 be together, is it a good thing?
OHMANNNNN. That’s not gonna happen! And if it does, I’m gonna love both of them to bits!

how about no3 and no4?
they’re already best buddies! Not surprising. (:

what is no2 studying about?
canoe polo-ing and her never ending trainings!

last time i chatted with no3?
yesterday, at the meeting.

what kind of music does no8 have?
Emo? I think so.

no6 have any siblings?

I have no idea! (ALVIN DO YOU?)

will you woo no7?
WOO NO7? In his dreams? (oops!)

is no4 single?
yes I think!

surname of no5?
ong.

where’s no3 studying?
Singapore Polytechnic

have you tried developing feelings for no8?
nahh, he’s attached lah!

where does no9 live?
Bukit Panjang! I forgot the name of the condo!

what colour does no4 like?
?? sorryyy…

does no7 like no2?
they don’t know each other but I think they don’t hate each other!

Cause they’re both awesome!

how do you know no2?
we’re in the same class! I bet we click so much because of our lameness!

no5 have a pet?
NO!?

2007-09-28T14:27:00.000+08:00

the fact is always cruel, now i know why.

i've been thinking that loads of people around me are superficial. i don't know why, but i just felt this way nowadays. those people whom i use to talk to now, are drifting away. maybe it's just the meeting of better new people around. anyway, i've always thought that 'life's a bitch', so i guess it's all proving now.

but i thankgod i knew loads of nice people too. like the year1s of Sports club, the FLIPPIES, the campers and helpers from ICE camp. though some people dislike me, but it's okay, no one can ever satisfy everyone, RIGHT?

school has been okay for the past 4 days. everything went well. just that i dread going to school. i have no idea why too. perhaps classes and lectures are just wayyyyyy too boring! gems tomorrow. my first gems class, wish me all the best people!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!!
i'm tired. bye all.

2007-09-23T06:42:00.000+08:00

it's not your turn to judge me, shut up and f off.

okay. back from ice camp. i'd say it failed.
but i'm glad i met those nice new friends. :D

don't wna elaborate more on anything but i just wna apologise to everyone about the food poisoning. SORRYYY.

takecare peeps.

Elaine. i miss you too! have your promos ended? catch up with you soon.
Ambroze. do take real good care. :D

2007-09-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

you brought my worries away like the bubbles in the air.

okay. this week passed kinda fast. i can't remember about what i did much too. class chalet on the 12th and 13th. i went for my class chalet and i was the only girl on the first night. everyone plans to stayover on the 2nd night while i plan to stayover on the first, so it's okay. at least the guys there are fine with me.

watched 3 movies straight on the first night. ohmy, i fell asleep at the 3rd disc and woke up after the movie ended. we played cards, watched tv, monopoly and crapped. i was too tired. slept at 5 in the morning and got woke up at 9am cause the guys were playing xbox and were making hell loads of noise. TSK. people started to come in the afternoon and it became a lil crowded. prepared for barbeque and i thought the barbeque was quite a success though i was planned last minute. thanks to everyone who put in effort and brought stuffs. i was so lethargic at the barbeque that i just sat around.

Yanli and i took Junhao's camera and took pictures! hahaha. i simply lover her! :D class chalet was a good get together session. i'm too lazy to elaborate on every detail. left the class and went home with ZhiMin and JunHao. i love talking to the both of them. their topics are always so funny. hur hur. i alighted at bugis and changed to bus. i really hate taking train cause there's so no privacy.

clarechew. :D

TOH YANLI IS LOVEEE.

i love the effect!

:D

white, red, havaianas.

classmates.

closer classmates. (:

dbf04 on the day! :D

school on the 14th for props making. i made a big spoon for the camp since i was the food i/c. it wasn't very nice cause i did it very last minute but still, it's okay! at least i have something! HAHAHA. thanks to everyone who have helped too. (: Holland Village for Subway after! it's SUBWAY!!!!!! it's love!

worked today at CCAB for a carnival for Sing health Corporate Games. umpire and photographer. nothing much. i was well paid i thought. yeah. nothing much to elaborate on. but i'm real tired now...

prep cam and ice camp starts tmr. ohmy. i really hope things will go fine. if anything is screwed, the whole committee will be screwed too. damn. i better get going to pack my stuffs. SIGHHH. i'll miss home. my bed, laptop and everything. ):

2007-09-10T05:13:00.000+08:00

staring at the sky, reminds me of those happiness.

i'm not feeling well today. i have been feeling terrible since i woke up. i feel like puking. ohman. please pray that i'll be fine. many things are coming up. class chalet, ice camp and everything. ooh shucks.

bye people.

2007-09-07T14:23:00.000+08:00

i've learnt to smile better with you;

alright. nothing much. have been meeting up with Wesley these 2 days. i don't wna go into details, it's nothing interesting.

oh wells, back have been hurting for quite sometime already so mum forced me to go to the doctor. and bloody hell, i can't attend trainings for the next 2 weeks. shucks. so trainings no longer in my list during holidays. TSK. mum still wanted the doctor to excuse me for a month thank god i stopped her in time.

town with yanli tomorrow and prolly baking cookies at yellow's place in the morning. (: i do love holidays to a certain extend.

2007-09-04T14:08:00.000+08:00

i'm walking away;

Over You- Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up then tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

i guess this song said what i'm feeling now.

replies to tags:
FARIZ - it's such a wonderful thing to share, esp about Felicia Chin! whees. :D
YANLI - yeah! it's been long since i shopped and caught up with you! i hate holidays cause i won't get to see you. ):
SHAHIRAH - thanks anw! takecare. :D
Bindy - nooooo. i thought the show was good! maybe you're too mature like the guys have said!
Kuangwei - Not emo at all.
Joan - i'm okay already! clare is strong! no worries!

2007-09-01T13:38:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just wonder what's happening to myself and around me.

teacher's day today! woke up earlier than usual to meet the people to go back to our secondary school. i wasn't late and Wesley paid for my lunch cause it was our bet. ate, saw the teachers ana crapped around. Dunearn is always a nice place to be in, cause i know that i can have my friends around me, though i know some people out there might also hate me to the core. but still, no one can satisfy everyone around them, so why bother. you either love Clare or hates Clare. doesn't matter.

sang Bindy birthday song at Dunearn's canteen. pictures taken too. it'll be up when i receive them from Rachel. (:

i was very into lame jokes today and i tried to squeeze out every lame joke that i have in my brains to tell others. and i found a very good partner to lame with! SINHOE! he can really lame well, or rather, he's damnnnnnn cold. sometimes i don't even get what he's trying to say, but still, he can entertain me. we make good entertainments.

wanted to catch Ratatouille at Lot1 but in the end we changed our mind and went to town. it's always town. i'm getting a little sick of town already. but still, i want to go and buy stuffs! and i'm damn glad that the new month starts tomorrow, cause it meant allowance and i can buy the things that i want already! i've been waiting for quite sometime already, and this month was a hard one to pass by.

i thought Ratatouille was worth worthing. and it's the first time of my life that i though Rats were cute. cause the animations was damn good and they made the Rats look cute, but few sences when loads of them came out at once was kinda gross.

i was VERYYY tired after the movie. i kept yawning nonstop. the banglas outside my house have been drilling nonstop from 8am in the morning everyday. i sleep late, and i wake up early due to them! haven had good sleep for 3 days already. i can't take it anymore! the drillings make me wna go out more cause i can go crazy if they continue this!

i'm kind of not feeling very good now. as in mood. i'm upset with Mum, and some friends. it'll all be fine tmr. w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r. i don't know what's wrong but i feel weird. i hate to have this feeling. Clare isn't emo. i'm NOT!

home and had instant noodle. no dinner for me tonight. yeah. i'm tired. and i still have to wake up early tomorrow. i need some good rest. it's holidays and yet, i'm tired.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!

2007-08-29T13:45:00.000+08:00

the songs that you played and sang for me.

nothing much today. went to meet Kuang and Amin to go queensway cause Amin wants to buy his soccer boots. i wanted to buy fbt shorts and shirt too but i'm running low on cash this month so i shall wait till i get my allowance next month. tsk.

training today was cancelled last minute due to the heavy rain. but thank god. or i think i'm gonna be covered with mud if i play on the DIRTY school field today! so yucky! so went over to Jurong Point to meet Su. slacked and talked at Coffee Bean.

the weather was freaking cold the whole day! they say that i'm a so-not-girly girl cause i don't bring an umbrella out! i couldn't find a umbrella at home so not my fault right! TSK.

okay! gonna stay at home tmr to do housework. i dislike holidays cause daddy would ask me to do houseworks! TSK. schedule for tmr : change bedsheet and mop my room! SIGHHHH. bye all!

2007-08-24T13:33:00.000+08:00

you left me in doubts, and never return.

Economics paper's O-V-E-R! meaning exam are all over and i should be damn glad, shouldn't i? BUTTTTTT, i'm not. cause i know i'm gonna fail econs this time round and i have to sit for the retest real soon again. it really won't feel good seeing your admin number at the school's notice board. tsk. but what to do, i really suck at econs, trust me people.

went to discuss the stuffs for ICE camp after the people's paper. it's really a big headache cause we haven really started and i've got the feeling that we've kinda screwed. oohman. i don't want to be such a lousy food i/c, may god bless me and at least let me find the quotations by tomorrow. i'm praying hard.

went to exercise with ShingChoon, Pat and Su after. it was their so called 'sports day' today! we played badminton first. it was really funny, but i really sweat it out! it's been sooooo long. finally i free lighter after today! then after is basketball. shooting. okay, i kinda suck at shooting from a certain angle! no matter what can't get the stupid shots in, TSK! but i practiced okay! i know nuts about basketball, so please pardon me!

oohyar. and i didn't bring anything for exercising today! so i borrowed Su's extra shirt, Jinna's fbt shorts, Schoon's socks and don't know whose shoes. nothing from head to top was mine!

when i came home, i realise i got one big blue black on my knee! Mummy kept rubbing it and TA-DA, it became all red and big!!! take a look!!

okay. i need to go back to school tomorrow again. i feel life-less going back to school everyday, but still, i have to get things done. sigh. bye people.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUANG!

2007-08-20T06:18:00.000+08:00

i've learnt to smile, even when life brings me down.

alright. about school first. one more paper to go and now i'll be enjoying my one month holiday. i'm praying hard that it wouldn't be a boring holiday. or i'd rather have no holiday at all. i'm beginning to miss exercising.really getting fatter with loads of extra fats.

fireworks yesterday was nice. i really love to watch fireworks. though like what someone said, it's short-lived. but at least you knew you once had it, so why grumble. life's always unfair. had a good chat with Andy too. i'm glad we can still be like the good old days, when we can talk about anything and everything under the sun.

watched Secret during the week too. it'd touching. but nothing like that gonna happen. life is just like that. it's all about making choices. everyone is bound to make the wrong choice once or twice, but it's alright as long as we know how to face it. i've learnt, and i will. no one cannot live with someone or something.

there's many regrets in life. but i know i shouldn't look back. cause it's of no point at all.

okay. this is getting naggy. better end here. till next time.

2007-08-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

i took that much time to forget, i don't wish to waste more.
cause you're totally not worth it.

accountings exam yesterday. i wouldn't say it went really bad, but i would say it's okay, though i didn't manage to balance the balance sheet and my answer was wrong. still, it's over and i'm glad. one paper down!

Marketing is up next on thursday morning and i've yet studied for it. no motivation. hopefully the paper will be manageable. i'm praying really hard.

i can't wait for exams to end, when i can shop, go for trainings (to burn fats), play, slack and enjoy everyday! there'll be class chalet, ice camp, everything and anything except books! whees!

2007-08-11T14:25:00.000+08:00

you chose it, don't look back at me.

When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne
When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

aww damn. i got emo listening to this song again. the lyrics are just like so damn hurtful.
it's just replaying itself on my media's player.
but Avril Lavigne songs are damn nice. i was listening through all the songs by her in my player.

i'm damn stress about accounts now, i needa whine! ahh shucks. i need someone, who can give me some comfort and assurance. ):

2007-08-09T12:00:00.000+08:00

the friends closest to my heart.

i'm meeting them tomorrow. like yay-ness. it's been long since i met them. (:
i'm suspecting myself from having some sort of brain tumour, cause i get headaches and migraines damn frequently these days. ahh damn. please don't let me die too early.

met farhani this afternoon. she came over to school to find me and i accompanied her to the sinseh. it's been long since i met her and it's great to catch up with her. the gossips, nonsense and FOOD! whees. clare's a happy girl today!

i'm craving for 3 things.
SUBWAY
PASTAMANIA
PIZZA HUT!
ahhh damn.

2007-08-07T04:57:00.001+08:00

you're my rainbow, my rain, my sky.

ahh. it's been really long since i'm home alone on a weekday. it felt so secondary school day all of a sudden. i remember those days of secondary school holidays when i'll just stay home and slack 24/7. but now it feels like O's period, when i have to motivate myself to study. but srsly, my modules doesn't interest me AT ALL.

now at home there's 2 major distraction. my lovely bed and laptop. but i can't do without my laptop cause i need to practice for my Microsoft Word test on wednesday. i can't fail again cause i flunk my Microsoft Excel already. ahh damn. i really need to buck up!

i promised to study at 2pm! and i shall do it. shall start the ball rolling by reading up on my accounts first! it's really a freaky module!

got to go. but before that. i wna whine! please pardon me.
I LOST MY FREAKING 50BUCKS! which means i really got to go on a really budget budget this month! F-ING HELL!!

2007-08-05T07:07:00.000+08:00

i'm right here waiting for you,
to pick me up,
and never let go.

went for ICE camp organising committee meeting yesterday and i swear the meeting was kind of a torture to me.
it's WAYYYY too serious. damn different from those funny meetings we have at sports club. how flexible can our club be and i'm really damn glad. i can't imagine myself attending this kind of meeting every now and then. ahh shucks.

okay. in food team for ICE camp. drew lots and was made the food I/C. ahh please. don't despise me. so what if i'm a Year1 with not much experiences. i think i can do better than you. stop asking me to do this and that. show me a wee bit of respect. don't get on my nerves. ahh w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r. i srsly can't work with people who thinks that they're great. GREAT? oohyar, my ass.

enough about meeting, it's enough to kill my mood.

it's finally saturday. and it's study week next week and then semestral exams. i don't have too much time to worry about any other things already. now i just wna study and do well for my exams. i don't wna be a failure.

talking about failure, i failed my accountings test as expected. but i didn't fail too badly, so it isn't that bad. i'll study accountings and try to pass the semestral exams. WORRIES.

before i end, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GASTON! (:

2007-08-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

if only it all never happen.

clare fell sick.
i caught a cold.
i'm too lazy to elaborate.
school's boring.
exams are coming.
no trainings = FAT!
didn't went to shop for a long time.
hate statistics tutorial tomorrow.
bye for now! ):

2007-07-30T04:37:00.000+08:00

but you chose to let it go.

firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAT! hope that you had a great birthday!
went over to pat's house in the evening for his birthday party. after dinner and cake cutting, they were all drinking. okay, MOST were drinking. and some got really drunk. they don't know what the shit they did. it was really hilarious to look at drunkards. they're just not themselves.
and of course, Clare didn't drink! :D
was playing poker with Joy, Kuang, Shingchoon, Gaston, Steven and Jason. was on the poker game when the bet was a snap on your ears. i got 3 uber painful ones from Kuang! but but. he got painful ones from the others too! so we're quits! i thought Gaston was quite funny when he drank quite a bit and when he lost his ear rings. hur. reached home at around 1230.

i shall stay home today and probably study a little. semestral exams are really
approaching. ooh shit.

the picture we took with coach on her last training with Dunearn. i just receive the photo. i really miss playing Netball with these girls. :(

2007-07-28T13:27:00.000+08:00

was it what i've wanted?
i'm doubting myself.

i'm so so so damn glad to tell all of you that my Marketing project is OVER! no matter what the result is, i still haved a sigh of relief. it's a damn good feeling after my group presented. PHEW!! thank god everything went well. nothing major happen.

went for a super uber small meeting after class. then SPtunes after with Sports Club people. nothing much. but i was really impressed by bah. that guy can really sing. didn't join them for dinner cause i was really tired.

pictures after Marketing class! for the other 3 groups presenting next week, WORKHARD!! (:

GOODBYE!

2007-07-27T12:59:00.000+08:00

i'll wait for you, at the place where we first met.

i really hasn't been feeling well these days. headache just come as and when it likes, and sometimes it really felt like it's gonna burst! maybe i just lacked some real good rest.

i'm so glad Marketing presentation is tomorrow. please wish me all the best and hope that the tutor is in a super duper good mood tomorrow, or i'll have a hard time handling his questions. i'm so sure i'll be able to sleep in peace tomorrow night cause my misery is finally OVER! it's double YAY-ness. but still, i hope for the best.

Marketing lecturer have just left and the new guy just came to took over on wednesday. i swear i dragged my feet to school that morning just for his lecture cause i was so damn curious how he'll teach. and gosh, he's a billion time worse than the previous one. the previous lecturer is such a good speaker, i've always loved to attend his lectures, but now. ohman. forget it!

i got to go write up my speech for my presentation already! till next time. :D