i wish i could run away from all these shits.

now i understand, what's the meaning of 'shit happens'.

this week was really full of shit. everything wasn't going well starting from the first day of school.

i lost my phone, i couldn't get transferred into dbf06, i got pang seh-ed by the guys who once promised that they wouldn't, i fell ill on Friday and was crying like no one's business, i missed m1 touch preliminary rounds, i miss first day of gems (no big deal though) and basically, i was just feeling like shit the whole week.

the thing that disturbs me most was my class now. i've tried all that i could have done to get into dbf06, but wells, i can't. i shall live on with it for the next 2 years. mind you people, it's not one semester or one year, it's 2 full years, the rest of my poly life. you all might say i can make new friends all over again, but don't say what you think is easy to do cause it's not as easy as how it came out from your mouth.

sometimes i tell myself that i shouldn't blame the 2 guys, but sometimes, i just can't bring myself not to. i know it's my own problems for not being able to get my ass in there, but it was their fault for breaking promises and went without Yanli and i. call yourself friends for being 'so-nice'.

but thanks everyone who have tried their very best with us, i really appreciates it and i won't cry ever again, for this thing. what done is done, right? no use saying sorry, guilty or anything. humans always put themselves in front of others. i dont blame their human nature.

Yanli, i promise to go through these 2 years of shit with you alrights. we'll either go into a class tgt, or stay on and live with it for the rest of our lives. we'll try to make friends again and everything would be fine, i hope/pray.

i'm sick of all these, bye people.

i haven met SPSSC peeps for a longggg time. thanks to these shits and myself for being weak and falling ill. i miss them!

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