ohman! went to school early in the morning again to get my laptop installation done. and now...IT'S FINALLY DONE! got to really thank Thomas and Co, cause they've really been a great help. i think i couldn't get it done so quickly if not for them. just that my poor laptop now has no sound at all. something's wrong with the sound card or something. i hope i can get it back to normal. it's so quiet now whenever i'm online, and i sucks.

phone died on me today! felt so weird without a 'working' handphone. after having kfc in school, i trained to Bukit Batok interchange to meet up with bryan. he was late okay! and i was so damn worried that he cannot find me. and i can't use my handphone to call him luh! the feeling just suck so damn much. was damn glad when i saw him after 15mins of waiting. walked around Westmall while waiting for Elaine to reach. it's been damn long since i went into Westmall. ooh. i use to hate that place went i was in Dunearn.

bus down to Queensway when Elaine reach. Elaine's superbly LAME! all of us didn't know how to continue with her nonsense! hahah. she's really the ultimate. OHYAR! Elaine haolian about her calculator. hahah. Bryan's right, her brain pai already! met up with Darrell and Zhiyun at Queensway. bought red fbt shorts and nike socks. went over to IKEA to meet up with Serene, GuanTing and Jacky. had an ice cream and it's damn nice. went IKEA as Darrell wanted to get his pillows. he's really damn slow luh. all of us got really impatient and keep hurrying him. hahah. all of us went home after except Bryan and Elaine.

went Bukit Panjang Plaza with Zhiyun and Serene. finally i got a laptop bag! like YAY-NESS!!! i know i'm crazy but i really had a hard time looking for one. sorry eh Bryan, crumpler's too expensive! hahah.

i'm dead beat. i just hope the Banglas stop all the banging and drilling so early in the morning. ohmygod, i still need to go to school tomorrow for the camp briefing. shit-s/

DAMN IT!

my laptop has nothing in it now! pissing-

the feeling of no work and no school after some time is really great and marvellous! at least you can do whatever you want and no one would ever bother about you! like YAY! but those stupid banglas started to drill and knock outside my house early in the morning! regretted asking dad to voted for the upgrading of lifts. i don't know how many more months i got to bear with all these drillings and banging!

so i woke up at 1015 today and i was suppose to meet Jeraine at 11 on the bus. but at 11 there's still no news of her so i called her up! and i thank god that i was smart enough to call her! she OVERSLEPT! listen people, i wasn't the one who's late. for i have a damn bad reputation for being late! i was early okay! so we changed our meeting time to 12. went to the clinic and i finally got all my medical checkups done.

bus to school. SCHOOL AGAIN! i'm going to school nearly everyday when school haven even officially started. i'm gonna do that for the next 3 years! god damn! went to hand in my cpf form, paid up for the sports camp next week and accompany Jeraine to buy her laptop. the queue's damn bloody long and she decided to go back and get it tomorrow. i'm going to school tmr [again!!] to self certified my laptop. it's gonna take me 5 long hours as stated and i think i better bring my wordsearch book to kill time.

bus to town then to meet Wesley. we were suppose to meet at 0300 but we were both late! but i reached earlier okay! i wasn't late again! and wesley owe me a cup of teh. hahah! went to crumpler and wanted to get the laptop bag. red's out of stock and i don't know the exact size of my laptop so i'll be going back to get it some other day. walked around paragon and i decided to get the red adidas sling bag in the end. i never fail to buy something when i'm out with Wesley, he'll just go 'if you like then buy lah! BUY!'. no one to stop me so i always get everything that caught my eyes! damn. i'm over my budget! OVER!! Wesley got pencil box and belt from takashimaya. he splurge today! hahah.

Bugis after. went to have a few words with Zhiyun at swatch! hahah. she's always entertained by us. went to Sim Lim Square as Wesley wanted to get the Sony thumbdrive! it's kinda cheaper there. had naan for dinner. new intro by Wesley. it was nice but damn spicy! we drank so much water! i can't take the hot-ness! bus home then. met Zhiyun on the bus and we chatted all the way back home!

so many things to do and yet i realise there's not much time left before school opens! ohmygod!

goodbye ICA

last day of work today. it was the BEST day ever since i worked in ICA. everyone just asked me to slack and do the job themself. i felt so loved by everyone today. :D

to everyone from ICA/VSC/STP1, i just wna say a very big thankyou. being the youngest there was great. everyone just treated you like their child or a sister. i've known great people there. i'm never bullied. hahah. though sometimes i really drag myself to work, i suddenly realise it's sad to leave all of you. i hate it when i'm transferred to SVP for the 2 weeks. without all the jokes and nonsense from you guys, it's really bored. STP1 peeps made work so fun! i love you people. do take care and i'll drop by when i'm free! it's another event of saying goodbye. i nearly cried infront of everyone when i was receiving all the presents and best wishes. i really will miss you guys. i hate this feeling, of leaving your loved ones or friends. it's just terrible.

my temporary pass!


okay. i'm in the toilet! hahah.

i heard something today, that even MARS can't make me a lil happier. fuck off hypocrite. i've seen your true colours.

i'm late for an hour for work today! DAMN. i woke up earlier but monday's traffic is really disastrous. hate it. but thank god i only need to take for another day! i handed in my resignation already. felt so damn happy. :D

went SP for enrolment with Jeraine in the afternoon. took the photo for my student pass and now i'm officially an SP students. hahah. went around as a group and had briefing for various camps! signed up for Sports Camp and Freshmen Orientation Camp. i wna go to sports camp please call me! urgh. Rachel waited for me at the bus stop outside school. sorry girl, to make you wait for so long! took 106 to town and met Bindy, Bryan, GuanTing, Serene, Zhiyun, Wesley, Jacky and Weijie. walked around town and waited for the Sakae Sushi dinner buffet to start. hahah. Weijie went off first cause he've got Scuba Diving course, i think. the rest of us went in at 6.30pm sharp. eat and eat! we aim to eat 100 plates but in the end, we only manage around 85 plates. Bryan says we're weaklings. he really eat a lot can! his mouth is so big and he really eat like a monster! wlao eh. we're all looking at the rate he eat! he should go join the 'da wei wang' competition. hahah. left for home after that. :)

Bryan and Bindy challenged and they ate this. Wasibiko! EEYER. it really stinks.

half of what we ate! hahah.

it was great to meet up with the friends again. short but time together was spent meaningfully! :)

i love playing UNO stacko!

ohman. i din have enough sleep today! woke up at 930 and i'm out the whole day till now! i'm dead beat. can't imagine i've gotta drag myself out of bed tomorrow and go to work. sucks.

Case Of My Ex - Mya


it's the weekend! i finally can get some good sleep tonight and tomorrow. :) have been waiting for this day to come.

okay. went to meet Wesley at Bugis after work today. find Zhiyun cause she's working there today. had Mac and went to walk around with her. she's so lucky today, cause we actually accompanied her for a lil 'shopping' during her break! hur. went around looking at mouse and thumbdrive. okay, i'm really an idiot on IT stuffs, i can't deny it. totally clueless. Zhiyun went back to work later on and i went Sim Lim Square with Wesley. ohman. that place is totally crowded. there are so many laptops! i really wonder how people choose which to buy! bought my new mouse there. like finally i have a new mouse. the old one sucks.

bus to town. went to take a look at the Crumpler laptop bag. i needa measure my laptop. cause i threw away my box and everything of my laptop. i don't even know how big and heavy it is. god. how stupid of me. Wesley said i'm really stupid. i admit lah! :X home sweet home then! my legs are really aching. i don't know why! i spend my time sitting down at work, but it's really aching like hell!

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accompanied Bryan to NP to get his new laptop after work. the guy selling that laptop is really crap. he look a lil weird, and gay-ish? hahah. Yimian was there with his parents too! it's been long since i met him! chatted with him for awhile and we made a move first. went for dinner and home after. it's nice catching up with him talking all the nonsense and everything. he's always a nice buddy. it's been long since i had a good talk with him. :D

ohyar! Henry and Alex gave me 6 bars of Mars in total! ohmygod. they're really making me FAT! but thanks guys. i appreciate it. sorry that i didn't get you guys anything kay. let's meet up some day for dinner or something!

i think mum's having her bloody period and she's doing weird things and scolding for no reason. madness. i hate it when she have her periods. i'll become her victim for no reason. wtf. and i need to go to the bloody dentist again. my tooth hurts! maybe i should really cut down on sweets! say goodbye to 50bucks again! GOD! that's about it. off to dinner now! enjoy the weekend people!

okay, work was easy and time passes fast today. nothing much to whine about! :) went for dinner with Henry and Alex after work. had roti prata cause i was the one who requested it! thanks guys for accompanying me. it's really a pleasure to know them. next week is packed with school stuffs. i haven't got the CPF thing done, am i too late? ohman!

ohyea. i got the sudden urge to tell the whole world that, I LOVE BARNEY!


someone told me, 'life is full of uncertainties, so treausure whatever you have and don't let go of things, people and your dream!' okay. it kinda struck me in my head. i felt a little regrets towards some things, but there's no turning back anymore. i just hope i have the chance to have them all over again. so right now, look ahead! life would be great! i really wouldn't want to step into my grave with regrets.

i overslept this morning! was suppose to meet Jeraine at 930 but i postponed it to 1000. hur! met her at Woodlands Interchange and went to do the medical checkup together. we reached at about 1030 and woah, there was a long queue of people! the queue reminds me of the day when people were crazy over macdonalds hello kitty and they queue just to get them. hahah. but the crowd is really quite scary.

toom x-ray, height and weight. there's smth wrong with the machine! the weigh me and i was only 32.6kg luh! IMPOSSIBLE! went to tell the doctor about it during the consultation. what a stupid mistake. okay. Dunearn's height and weight machine is not acurrate at all. i shrink 4cm! 4 bloody centimetres okay! that makes me damn short now. Jeraine shrink 3cm. she's no better than me. hur. got to go back to the stupid clinic few days later cause i'm having my damn periods and i couldn't do the urine test. wtf. wouldn't want to elaborate further. off to town after the checkup. had Pepper Lunch. shopped around. left town at around 530. Jeraine went home and i train down to Vivocity.caught TMNT sneak preview. okay. i'll rate it 3.5/5. one item off my wish list! YAY! dinner and home sweet home.

ohyar! met some fun people at work recently. Henry, Alex and cartoon [i call him that and i still couldn't get his name right! uh oh.] the made time at work pass faster! heh. too bad they're only here for a week. but they're all nice people! Henry's giving me a morning call tmr. i hope i wouldn't be late again. i'm a late QUEEN. gosh. that doesn't sound nice.

goodbye people. :D

just like to dedicate this post to all my secondary school friends out there, be it where you are now, which school or which campus, we'll keep in touch and be friends forever! i believe that secondary school friends will be the dearest to our heart, cause it's the part of our life that most ups and downs happen.
let me list all of them down.

first and foremost, 2e2'04 peeps. they were the ones who brought me great memories through my lower secondary school life. the ones who made studying not so boring. people in 2e2 are really marvellous. we still kept in touch, all the way till now even when we were in different class, and even diff schools now. i wish you guys all the best, and do remember me! :)

4e2'06. it's the 2 years of struggle with upper secondary school work. it isnt as easy as what others may think. all the tutorials, peer tutoring, i know we've been of help to one another. i didn't regret getting into 4e2. though the workload is a lot, i've knew this group of fun loving people. we study, play, gossip and disturb others together. though there might be some disputes, i do believe we're all bonded as a class. so people! once in 4e2'o6, forever we are as one! goodlucks in your studies peeps, all the best!

the 4 of them out there. Bindy, Serene, Zhiyun and Rachel. i just realised, we're all in different schools! but that wouldn't mean that our friendship will end here, right! you guys were the greatest of my whole school life. being there for each other no matter what happen, encouraging and never give up. thankyou girls. i really love you. life would be so much different without you girls. i cherish the close friendship that we share. though i know we're bound to meet other friends, but let's just keep each other in our hearts and meet up once in a while! i'll miss you! i wna say an esp thankyou to Bindy. she's really been a good mate. always there no matter what happens, for me to pour my sorrows onto. thankyou pal, you're the greatest.

the guys. i hope i won't miss anyone out. Wesley, Bryan, GuanTing, Fahrun, Jacky, Weijie, JinFu, JinGui, Joel, Alvin, ZhenMing, Wayne, Andy, Darrell, Joseph, Keng Kiang, Vincent and Yi Mian. plus the girls. Elaine, Sandra, ChaiLeng, Farhani, Huiyi, Jeraine, Vina. you guys were the crappiest bunch of people i'd ever know. without those nonsense and craps, life would be miserable. a very very big thankyou guys! i miss the days when we'll all sit in the canteen during recess and after school! :D

Sean, Henry, Joe, Wayne. thank you guys for stepping into my life once. all of you were great, i swear. all of you guys taught me part of life. without you, i wouldn't be the clare now. thanks, really. even until now for that i know i can find someone to talk to when i'm upset. you guys really know me well and accepted me for who i am. sorry if i've hurt anyone of you before, i know it was stupid of me. glad that we're all still friends now.

i'm tearing while writing this post. it's really sad to see everyone going their own way. how much i want to go back to the same old days. but people, you all were the best part of my life! i love you guys! takecare. do remember me, for that i'll remember all of you FOREVER! <3

LOVE VS. LIKE
Don't EVER leave the one you love
for the one you like
because
the one you like will leave you
for the one they love

how true is that? i wonder...

i'll walk out of this and be strong! :)

i do hope the story will happen on us.
let's let nature takes its course.
remember, i'm always just a message away, right here waiting.

okay. staying home for the whole day today. it's been sometime since i stayed at home for the day. it's the 18th of the month, and it brought me back the 'feeling'. i hope i don't experience this on every 18th. it's bloody sucky. told ya i hope 18th would be out of the calender forever!

i've been approaching till i'm really tired i would say. all i need is that little initiative and you to be decisive. i'll be thankful by then. BE A MAN! you know all i need is an answer from you and i'd know what to do. :) if you always choose to run away, then forget it man. i wouldn't waste anymore time. don't expect more than what's given. i sent a message, but no reply. din know you became so harsh to me. probably that's just my answer. ooh man. enough is enough. i'm upset that ego and pride killed part of you. do think about it... enough said.

friends are starting school tomorrow! hur. i still have approximately 3 weeks more to slack. manager says there'll be 8 temporary staff reporting to work tomorrow! 8 mind you! there's now 2 of us and we're always stoning like nobody's business. why hire more people to stone with us! but whatever. i wish there'd be funny guys or girls? urgh. DREAM ON CLARE. all the fun people wouldn't be working like you! ha. but yea, i just need someone to entertain me at work!

mum got 'lao hua yan'. how hilarious! i won't be the only one at home who have to wear specs anymore. wahaha! i know i'm evil! :X

nothing much. it's only 1:38PM. probably i'll spend my day sleeping to 'recharge' my body! and yar! watch the vcd that wesley borrowed me! i was telling him i got this sudden urge to read 'The Giver' again, so he said he'll borrow me this vcd. i shall watch it! :D

okay. weekend is finally here and it's a break. i love SUNDAYS! the day that i can sleep sleep and sleep cause i wouldn't be going out. you know how great the feeling can be. :D

work has been really bored these days. all i do is sit in the room, and stoned. passports only come like one in half an hour. my officer says they hire me here to 'beat mosquito' (translate that into dialect if you can!) did something really stupid twice in a row. ohmygoodness! there's this emergency alarm under my desk, once trigger the security would dash [i used the word dash] up to the room. cause it's a sign that i might be attacked. but i gave them false alarm twice in a row. i know the security wants to slap me tight in the face. but the place it in such a place that accidents would happen, you can't blame me totally! hur. the security would come up, report a false alarm, sit down in the room with me and have a lil chat. their work is really really hard. it's not a big deal being a cisco! he's 27 years old and really make me feel like a little girl infront of him. i can't wait till i'm 21. can't wait can't wait! i'm SO free that i'm even make the KOPI GIRL for the day. damn.

i would play PUZZLE BOBBLE [i know it's a child's play but i just love it, like i love barney!] when i'm bored again. i remeber i use to play this when i was in secondary 4. i just graduated but it really seem so long that i've been to school. i wna study, cause it's way better than working! :X

ohyea. people have been asking me to put up a tagboard, but i don't feel like it. so people, please leave a comment if you want! thankyou. :)

okay! i skipped work. like again. everyone's asking me to just quit it. maybe i'll bear with it for another week or two. earning a little more is better than nothing, right? alright. met Wesley under my block, i was late even though it was under my block kay, SO SORRY BROTHER! went to POSB bank first to change the thumbprint to signature. finally. i can sign! :)

brought like over a thousand out today. it's always good to have a MAN with you. went to standard chartered bank to pay the first semester school fees. posted the package back to them already. finally i'm like halfway through my enrolment. very big thankyou to Wesley. he's a great chap and company! went to bukit timah food centre for lunch. GuanTing met us there. food was nice. thumbs up! had our lunch and went over to meet all the others at Century for pool. so many dunearn peeps was there can! i was so shocked when i enter! Bindy, Elaine, Fahrun, Joseph, Alvin, Hui Ling, Darryl, Yuxiong, Jacky, and Helmi and co. it's kinda shocking to see so many people playing pool at the same time!

Elaine, Wesley, GuanTing, Fahrun and ME went Lot1 cause Wesley wants to get a new pair of slippers. he hates his pair now cause... shan't say or he'll kill me! Bryan,Darrell and Alvin joined us later. Elaine skipped tuition just to stay with us. hur. went over to Lam Soon (i hope i spelt it correctly) to watch the guys play! okay. it's always rough when you play street soccer.

finally got to see ELAINE today! she's really a joke. can't help but laugh when she talks. seriously crap. she admitted that she became a little retarded. HAHA! you know, they don't get to enjoy after this week. aww.

i'm going back to work tmr. meeting either Wesley or the gang to have dinner tmr. i just hope time passes faster at work. :)

i just hope you can feel a little of how i feel. i'm upset.

woah. the feeling of skipping work is totally AWESOME! though that stupid manager called me when i was about to leave home, just came up with a stupid excuse. whatever it is, i'm gonna quit real soon, fire me if you want! I DON'T CARE! hur.

went out with the normal group of friends. lunch, pool, movie, dinner and shop! watch primeval. i really don't know the correct pronunciation, so zy and me called it the pri-simi-sai. it was an average movie with a totally outrageous ending. like WTF! it just ended nowhere can. wlao eh. but i do hate crocodiles now. they're the worst animals on earth. and yay-ness, i got an elmo shirt. hahaha. and guess what. jacky really hates ELMO! cause elmo got really huge eyes! we can all understand why he wants elmo to die! haha. poor jacky!

nothing much for today. but the day's gonna end soon, which means i must go to work tmr. ohman. really dread going to work. dragging my feet there everyday! and i haven started my enrolment for poly. ohman! so many things to do yet so little time! ohyar. do drop a comment if you want! :)

there's 12 things currently in my mind:

1. FLY KITE! will someone please bring me to fly a kite. felt really loser cause i haven fly a kite for my entire 16years of life. ohmygod. i'm really dying for it! :X
2. Finish my book of JUMBO WORD FIND. i developed an interest lately for word search. hur.
3. Get a new earpiece. my stupid earpiece had been giving me problems lately. someone be nice and buy me one!? HA!
4. Settle the things for my enrolment into Singapore Polytechnic. it's really complicating. i don't understand what they want!
5. Get a thumb drive.
6. Shopping! esp with my shopping mate, Jeraine!
7. Medical checkup.
8. Watch the Mr Bean's movie.
9. Catch the movie TMNT. it's really been quite some time since i saw NINJA TURTLES!
10. QUIT MY JOB! i'm really dragging my feel to work these days already. moodless.
11. Catch some good sleep. hasn't been sleeping well these days! dark eye circles are terrible!
12. School to start soon! i really miss studying all of a sudden.

Okay. these are the few things that are needed to be done asap! i've just received the enrolment package for SP. praying hard that i wouldn't see anything about laptops. but WTHELL! we need laptop. thought that getting into SP can save money cause we don't hafta get one, the stupid rule just change this year. how i wish i was born one year earlier. wlao. now i needa bring my laptop to the school one day and reformat everything. everything in my laptop will be DELETED! ohmy.

i just had a bet with someone through our conversation last night! hur. don't think i'll forget about it huh! he can be ready to treat me for a meal every semester! :D

alright. appeal results will be out tomorrow. though i didnt appeal, but i'm excited for my friends! got to go. :) ohyar! i'm skipping work tmr! HOHO.

it's a sudden urge to open a new blog. maybe it's somewhere that i can write out my problems. but there's always ONE problem existing. when you have a blog, people will read it and always give comments or talk behind your back. not to any particular someone but that's always the case, isn't it? can't really be bothered now. it's my life, say all you want cause i know those words of those people wouldn't make any changes. keeping this blog simple and easy.

life has been really different these days. it's work, slack and out with friends. should i be happy with the life now? no limitations, no one's controlling, nothing at all. i know deep down, that's not really the way i want them to be. many things have changed, and many lessons are learnt.

in life, all you have is yourself. don't ever expect someone to be there for you forever and share your problems with you. someday, sometime, they'll get sick and just leave you. you can't hold them back, you can't have them with you again. it's just part of life. the mistakes that you make can't be corrected, the lies that you told, can't be turned back. so just look ahead and start life new. i'm glad that my new chapter of life is going to start soon. when school starts for me, i wouldn't turn back at things of the past. but friends are the people that i'll keep with me. all the other bad happenings, friends backstabbing, broken relationships and secondary school time failures will be all thrown aside. it'll be a new CLARECHEW and i new life.

(to the someone whom know who he is and i know others know who he is:
this is the one and only post dedicated to you. i know we'll through. you have your own life and it's time that i have something new again. i really dont know what you want. you made me hold on, let go and hold on again and again. a definite answer i want from you isn't gotten. it's a NO plus some words from you. should i let go? or should i continue on? i'll make up my decision before school starts for me. i've told myself. it's either now (be it good or bad), or never ever. life looks great for you now. i don't know whether it's true or not. but to tell you the truth, i've never felt that you made any effort at all. maybe people are right, someone who's worth your tears wouldn't even make you cry. someone who really loves you wouldn't keep you waiting here like an idiot. i'm tired, and i know so are you. it's time to learn to live without your shoulder and love. no matter what is it, you've made clear to me that it's a goodbye. if only the element LOVE doesn't exist in me. tell me how you feel, even if it's something that i don't wna hear, let me hear them. at least i'd know i've tried my best. :X)

some people might think. THAT CLARECHEW IS ALWAYS POSTING SUCH POSTS. but who cares. just shut up and leave if you're not happy. i don't need you here anyway.

that's for the first post of this new blog. off to dinner! :)

will someone bring me to fly a kite!?