i found out some things, but i feign ignorance.

okayy. i'm back from SMAC nightwalk. i'd say my station is kind of SCARY? designated above LT5. it was freaking hot. alright. nothing much. we took a few pictures. and Alvina seriously look like Pikachu.

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the other pictures are with Lina.

alright. i stayed up through the night. couldn't sleep in club last night. Borrowed laptop from Lezlie and wanted to watch High School Musical but i couldn't find the file so i didn't watch in the end. others was playing Risk while i surf the net. all went to sleep at around 6 in the morning and the only people left awake is Joan. we had some little random chats and went to have mac breakfast. YUMMY! mac breakfast is LOVEEEEE. (:

watched Sports Club vs Design Club's captain's ball intercons, clementi for lunch and home sweet home! bathed and slept like a pig till 9 when mummy was back with dinner! :D

i'm getting random at blogging these day.

lazy to start with my e-learning work. i've so much things yet so little time. banner painting in sch tmr. Touch at NTU on Wednesday. i need some time to study for MST, do my projects and meet up with friends! ):

i do hate e-learning.

replies to tags:
JENNIFER. yeah. like after so long! seeya around again soon! much loves. :D
EVEINE. ooh it's you! hurr. anyway study hard for MST. seeyou at week7!
FARIZ. dont leave your shit here pal. (:
HENRY. thanks yeah? hahah. you should sound more sincere!
KUANG. no i'm not. and goodlucks for intercons.

i hope one day i'd be just us.

the show on channel 8 had just ended and i was seriously TOUCHED. mummy and i were crying. i have this sudden urge to blog about what i've felt towards l-o-v-e.

it's been long that i've not believe in that. as in, i do not think that anyone could accept me for who i am. i know i'm not perfect, and no one is. i'm willing to accept the one i love/like for his flaws. but i guess all humans are very realistic, they want to find the one who they think is best, and have the best.

i think 'love' is a very vague word. everyone have different definitions and way of looking at it. but to me, love is when i can trust a person wholly and accept him for who he is. i'm looking for my self-confidence now. i do admit that i always have quit low confidence about myself. one little word here and there might hurt inside, but i appear to be really fine. i show my dislikes for people. i wouldn't take an extra effort to suck up to people. maybe that's my weakness. i need to do something about myself.

it's been 8months since i'm single. everything seem to go well. i hope things will continue the way it is. i'll just let nature takes it's course. to have it, or to remain the way it is. if i'm willing... ... ... would you?

sometimes i just need someone to tell me, 'everything's gonna be fine, i'll be around for you.'

i'm not emo.

you're the pills that made me smile.

i went back for touch training after 2 weeks. it didn't felt that bad afterall. it was raining initially and Joan, Delene and me was so reluctant cause we were feeling lazy. but i guessed we all didn't regret going for training yesterday. it's really good to train with Baby Angels. most of us are back for trainings. i'm glad with them around training!

nothing much about school. but i'm seriously getting lazy day by day. i'm lazy to wake up in the morning, resulting late-coming almost EVERYDAY? i know it's a very bad habit and i'm really trying hard to change it. why is there no straight bus from home to school. i hate changing bus, especially when i have to wait for 74 when sometimes it takes bloody long time to come!

i'm seriously craving for Subway and Starbucks now! oohman. will someone be nice and have them with me? hurr.

i know i'm having bad hair days. i just want it to grow fast. stop giving me unwanted comments. greatly appreciated.

alright. i shall stop here.

you might be the reason for the smile on my face.

alright. this week passed rather quickly. classes are still boring as usual, i guess i don't have to say this at every post of mine.

first ever sports club women's soccer training on friday. Patrick was our 'coach'? hur. we all had fun though we can't really kick the ball well! but the girl from finland who's under exchange program at our school now is really good. i'm waiting to see her score a goal for us. one more training on monday to know our positions and the rules, wednesday would be our match with SP women's soccer team. ohhhhh man. Pat keep on saying that we have the chances of winning, but i srsly think that the chances are really low. DAMNNNNNNN. just hope we wouldn't embarrassed ourselves too much!

have been hanging out with the year1s of sports club and people we know from ICE camp. afterall we concluded that ice isn't that useless afterall because it did bring us together! :D and i'm glad that i found these people.

next week would be a hectic week.
Match with SP women's soccer, SPSS test, Econs Retest on wednesday.
ITAB2 quiz on thursday.

why does there seem to be so many things but so little time now!

and oohyes. join facebook! i swear it's fun, though it's kinda hard to manage it! (:

1. person who tagged me-
   ELAINE TOH! The one who always makes me feel better after a conversation.

2. my relationship with her-
her wonderful words, craziness over soccer, and whining over school.

3. my 5 impressions of her-
Crazy, Retarded, Talkative (like seriously Elaine!), Bimbotic at times?, True towards everyone


4. most memorable thing that she had done for me-
accompanying me through the days when I was really down and never fail to talk to me when I needed someone.


5. most memorable words that she said to me-
ooh shucks, I can’t remember. Too many well said words during those days.


6. if she becomes my lover, i will?-
go crazy and show her off to every guy and say, ‘NEH NEH NI POO POO!!’

7. if she is my lover, he has to improve on-
I have no idea.


8. if he becomes my enemy-
it’s never gonna happen so why waste my brain juice thinking about it!


9. if he becomes my enemy, the reason is-
…

11. my overall impression of him-
The totally awesome and original one.


12. how do i think people around me will feel about me?-
not for me to say!


13. the character i love about myself is-
aye? How would I know? Maybe I’m… friendly!?

14. on the contrary, what character i hate about myself-
for caring about what others said! (right someone?)


15. the most ideal person i would like to be-
I don’t wna be anyone, just MYSELF!

17. pass this quiz to 10 ppl
ROCK ON :D


1) SERENE
2) YANLI
3) JENNIFER
4) ELAINE , SP
5) JOAN
6) ALVIN
7) REEVE
8) KUANGWEI
9) HENRY
10) FARIZ

is no9 a male/female?
Male


if no1 and no10 be together, is it a good thing?
OHMANNNNN. That’s not gonna happen! And if it does, I’m gonna love both of them to bits!

how about no3 and no4?
they’re already best buddies! Not surprising. (:


what is no2 studying about?
canoe polo-ing and her never ending trainings!


last time i chatted with no3?
yesterday, at the meeting.


what kind of music does no8 have?
Emo? I think so.

no6 have any siblings?

I have no idea! (ALVIN DO YOU?)


will you woo no7?
WOO NO7? In his dreams? (oops!)


is no4 single?
yes I think!

surname of no5?
ong.

where’s no3 studying?
Singapore Polytechnic


have you tried developing feelings for no8?
nahh, he’s attached lah!


where does no9 live?
Bukit Panjang! I forgot the name of the condo!


what colour does no4 like?
?? sorryyy…


does no7 like no2?
they don’t know each other but I think they don’t hate each other!

Cause they’re both awesome!


how do you know no2?
we’re in the same class! I bet we click so much because of our lameness!


no5 have a pet?
NO!?

the fact is always cruel, now i know why.

i've been thinking that loads of people around me are superficial. i don't know why, but i just felt this way nowadays. those people whom i use to talk to now, are drifting away. maybe it's just the meeting of better new people around. anyway, i've always thought that 'life's a bitch', so i guess it's all proving now.

but i thankgod i knew loads of nice people too. like the year1s of Sports club, the FLIPPIES, the campers and helpers from ICE camp. though some people dislike me, but it's okay, no one can ever satisfy everyone, RIGHT?

school has been okay for the past 4 days. everything went well. just that i dread going to school. i have no idea why too. perhaps classes and lectures are just wayyyyyy too boring! gems tomorrow. my first gems class, wish me all the best people!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!!
i'm tired. bye all.

it's not your turn to judge me, shut up and f off.

okay. back from ice camp. i'd say it failed.
but i'm glad i met those nice new friends. :D

don't wna elaborate more on anything but i just wna apologise to everyone about the food poisoning. SORRYYY.

takecare peeps.

Elaine. i miss you too! have your promos ended? catch up with you soon.
Ambroze. do take real good care. :D